Aaress

Hi, welcome to my profile! My name's Aaress, and I'm a reformed Seventh-day Adventist Christian who enjoys editing more than writing itself. 

The account I am using now is the same one I used to comment on inappropriate books and "groupchats", as some of you who knew me as Ren or Lance (with an old username) in the past will recognize. But back then, I lied about my name, gender, virginity, and even parts of my life that never happened. When I gained more followers and friends by being Ren/Lance, I decided to continue this deception so I could "get popular". But I wasn't content with the attention, friends, and followers I already had.

I wanted more. 

To fill the emptiness I was feeling, I discovered an unreliable, yet attractive solution: lust. And there seemed to be no end to the online smuts, black-and-white comics, and yaoi available to satisfy my want for affection with false intimacy. But yaoi audios and "kinky" imagines--even INCEST! couldn't stop the increasing pangs of emptiness and impossible loneliness I felt inside. Yet I rolled further into the dark, into lolicon and shotacon and bestiality and places that didn't see (or ignored) rape in its full terror and pain. 

I cannot recall my past without feeling regret and shame, but I CAN recall my past with gladness that the God who didn't just say "I'd die for you" overcame nerve-exploding, incredibly painful death on the cross in MY place where it was MY due to die. "He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; by his wounds you have been healed. For you were like sheep going astray, but now you have returned to the Shepherd and Overseer of your souls" (1 Peter 2:24, 26, NIV).