TopazTL

I swear I’m not dead....yet. 

atprawita

Sawadee kha, phi
          
          Can I please ask you a tiny favour?? I'm just starting a MewGulf story, do you mind giving it a little visit and maybe some advices??
          
          Thanks a lot before that, I hope I don't bother your time and you'll enjoy the story ❤

warmcheetos

Heyy :) 
          You probably don't remember me, I'd been off for a while. What happened to the reality sucks awards? Just curious cuz I was a judge for a couple criterias. No problem if it's cancelled. Have a good day/night❤

TopazTL

Ah yes. There was a small period of time when I lost all of my stories and they were all deleted. I got the majority of them back but I could not recover two of my new fanfics and the awards book. I mentioned it on my board a little while ago but yeah...I lost the story. And a lot of other stuff as well. :(
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TopazTL

Why is life so hard and contradictory? One good thing happens and then 10 more BAD things happen just to counteract the good. I’m getting tired of trying to see the bright side when I’m naturally a pessimist at heart. And I’m getting tired of being everyone’s therapist when I’m the one that needs support. Not that anyone cares. You can ignore me. I’ll be deleting this later probably, I’m only writing this because I’m hella tired and can’t think straight this morning. 

TopazTL

KYYAAAAAA!!! I found my laptop!
          
          I mean...it’s damaged and the charger is missing...BUT STILL. This means I can finish formatting my stories and get them published. I’m so excited. I’m in the middle of a big move and I’m still gonna need to find a new place within the next month but, once I’m in a more stable position, I think I will be able to start plotting new stories and finishing the ones I’ve been unable to work on.
          
          Thank you everyone for your patience and for sticking with me all this time through the good and the bad. Hopefully my life will look brighter soon. And I can be in a better place mentally to do more and accomplish more. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

truecolors823

@StormyTL Good for you..are you gonna finish "Not your Bitch":)
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Olivia_Benedetti

@StormyTL that's so good , I'm glad you are okay and that you are doing good 
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TopazTL

Hey guys...been a fat min. But I’m happy to say that, since I got such a good response from those who finished it...I will be revising and publishing Nameless And Missing You. The actually physical copy and ebook will contain parts that I left out and will be written better as I will have time to edit and master the final product. I doubt anyone really cares...lol...but thank you all so much for being patient and supportive during these hard times and I promise I won’t let you down. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

TopazTL

Hey guys...so...um...
          I’ve finally gotten the kick in the butt that I needed to actually put some of myself out there. I’m almost finished with my first ever song (with lyrics I wrote over a year ago) and I would be honored if you guys would stay tuned for it. If anyone is interested, I’ll drop my insta so you can know when it comes out...but yee. 
          You can ignore me if you want but I’m just happy for myself. Lol.

TopazTL

Alright so....I’ve made a different account. I started to feel really down about my original stories being far outshined by my fanfic(s) and I’ve decided to create all original stories on that account from here on out. I may or may not...down the road...move some of the stories here to that account.
          
          As a result though, sadly, I will lose the thousands of reads and hundreds of votes that I’ve accumulated on some of my stories for the past year and a half. If the time comes when I need boost, can I count on you to jump on over to my account and check it out? 
          
          You don’t have to of course and I’m not asking for it right now but I hope that one day my own stories can shine. 

TopazTL

I had a good conversation with my mom this morning about the split reactions I received on my statements throughout my socials. After reading my statement and some of the negative responses, she told me that I was right in my decision to speak about my experiences as well as opinions and that I do not have to silently put up with physical or mental abuse.
          
          So for those of you who read about what I’ve been through and tell me to “turn my cheek”, “stop talking about this”, or ANYTHING remotely similar...you need to learn about the suppression, oppression, and the subtle signs in which you are aggressively showing. 
          
          Also you need to just leave. 
          
          I have every right to ask certain parties to leave me alone and to leave my account/presence. I refuse to have my opinions silenced or be told to “turn my cheek” when the people telling me to do so have clearly loudly spoken their opinion and expect me to be silent about mine. Again, good riddance and good luck surviving in the real world. You’re going to need it. ;)

TopazTL

Less than a week into the new year and I’ve already lost hope for 2021...
          
          For any Trump supporters, unfollow me pls. I always believed that I shouldn’t judge a person by who they voted for (since I know plenty of good people who supported Trump) but it has come to my attention today that most of his followers have his same ideas. In the words of Ethan Nestor, “if you support our current president and what he stands for, i encourage you to step back and evaluate your own morals. If you stand with him, you stand on the side of racism, homophobia, misogyny, hate, injustice and fascism.” 
          
          I’ve encountered violent Trump supporters who literally tried to hurt me for speaking about my opinions and that was back when I was still trying to be respectful with my words. I’m done being a sweet person and trying to understand your point of view. I’ve done my best to do that until now and I’m tired of being silenced, threatened, and physically attacked because my idea of what’s good for the compassionate communities in our country is different from what you want to hear.
          
          Good riddance. ;)

TopazTL

@Silver-Light Yes, it’s very scary. And I’m willing to bet that you can see more for being someone who isn’t a direct part of the drama. You see more clearly than even I do and I appreciate the support. I hope that we all can be safe and moral in the world. ❤️❤️❤️❤️ 
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Silver-Light

@StormyTL  Kudos to you for standing up for what's right. I am mot even from USA. but I watched the live coverage of capitol hill being stormed by rioters was very scary. please stay safe. just few minutes ago. I read the new about a black women being beaten by trump suppoters. I really hope you stay safe. 
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Silver-Light

@Lizzy-Bugg Sorry to burst your bubble but its no longer about politics. trump just inceted a mob and tried an attemped coup. there are picture of trump suppoters with guns and hand ties.  So yes it's our wish if we refuse to associate with people who support such a racist and fascist government. You see we value humanity more. Just today we got a news about a black women being held and beaten up by trump suppoters. I am sorry. but this is not longer about politics. its about racism and a dictatorship. I am not from USA. but I and others have no interest to associate with such racist people. who lack humanity, moral values and are trying to destroy democracy. 
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