Tryselle

It's funny how I'm able to make ends meet with my three exams this week without even studying, I just thank myself sometimes for trying hard enough.
          
          
          College life is hard, I don't think that it's fun. It'll never be fun, just kidding.

Maybe I just like shy men who cries his heart out about something he's passionate with.
          
          
          UGH I HATE THIS! 

Not me finding myself crushing on Kairi from ONIC Indo, this is so stupid. I just saw him crying last night and I can't get him off my mind, I hate crushing on real people that I don't have a chance with.
          
          
          AND MOST IMPORTANT I DIDN'T HAVE ANY INTEREST UNTIL LAST NIGHT!
          
          
          THAT'S ACTUALLY CRAZY IF ONE CAN TELL!
          
          
          Also I never felt this energetic and happy when I see people, what is this?? Why am I crushing on a freaking person that I can't even reach.
          
          
          It's frustrating, I shouldn't have watched M5 last night. I'm really upset.

I just recovered from the stress, but not from the fear and anxiety I felt after what happened. But I want to say that I'm healing so far, and I hope to find myself doing good as time goes by.
          
          
          
          

I know this sounds crazy by my university just got bombed last Sunday, it traumatized me. And if you're a Filipino and saw the news, then you probably knew which university I am talking about.
          
          
          I felt terror when we non Muslims had to evacuate from the area, it broke me to pieces to leave my Muslim friends behind without any assurance of coming back. It was painful.
          
          
          As much as I don't want to rant here, it's sad to think that I almost died there. 

I got pneumonia, and I feel like jsdjdnnd. My lungs are hurting and they're literally giving me a hard time it's not even funny anymore. Now I had to skip school for a whole week to recover, it's not even funny considering how much I missed.

It's been a long time, and it's safe for me to say that I'm quite alive here.

AND NEVER FORGET TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELVES!

Well, I'm back!
          
          
          It's quite a busy month for me, and I can't do well with my studies if I get too occupied with social media so I stopped for a bit. But it was nice that I get to socialize with other people here and met my classmate (a close guy friend of mine in senior high) here in a city where most wouldn't want to go and study due to the rumours of how dangerous it can be.
          
          
          But I was glad that he's here, as he was the one who told me to go here. Saying that the place fits me more than anything, which is true. This place suits me more than anything.
          
          
          And now that I get to update you guys with my life, it's possible that I'll be updating maybe after exams. So hang over there for a bit.

I just started my college on August 14, and all I can say is that I'm truly tired. And my update sucks, I don't want to update anymore.
          
          
          
          Just kidding, but life has been kind to me. I broke up with my boyfriend weeks ago which is good for me, and my classmate in Senior highschool contacted me on messenger just to ask on where I live.
          
          
          Turns out he's in the same place as me, which was surprising because I thought he won't choose the place he encouraged me to because I was going to be "here" and he didn't want to.
          
          
          
          But the reason I was here in the first place is because I wanted to know more about his religion which is Islam, along with their tradition and culture. So seeing him here brought me joy, I didn't expect it.