Ugly_Otter

this message may be offensive 
I’m having a bit of sexuality crisis rn and I need some help.
          	
          	So I’m gay. I’m attracted to girls in the spicy kind of way. Known that for about 3-4 years now. But now I’m going through a crisis about that. The gist is that I think I might be Aromantic(lack of romantic attraction)
          	
          	I have a girlfriend and we’ve been together since May. She’s amazing and I like talking to her… and that’s about it. I don’t feel the urge to kiss her or hug or really tell her “I love you”(though I do exchange that with her but she says it first). I don’t know why but I just don’t really feel much. Like we’re dating but I don’t feel like we’re GIRLFRIENDS. I feel like I just have a really close friend. 
          	
          	This is not the first time I’ve felt like this. Every partner I’ve had hasn’t really held much weight on my heart and I was quick to leave because of it. I don’t know why I can’t stay and have a standard relationship. Is this me not being able to differentiate between different types of love or am I just an asshole with commitment problems?

Ugly_Otter

@qwertyuiop1234abc Thank you. I’m not against the ace spectrum but I just. It’s a realization that I’m still trying to process. If I am, I am. I’m just experiencing a lot of feelings that tie with it like guilt, anxiety, and doubt.
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qwertyuiop1234abc

@Ugly_Otter 
          	  Aight, first off, there's nothing wrong with being aromantic, if you do end up identifying as it. From the sounds of things, you might actually BE aromantic, or at least on the spectrum. 
          	  
          	  Quite frankly, it sounds to me like you might also be lithoromantic. Lithoromantic is defined as romantic attraction that fades once reciprocated. I'm not trying to tell you your orientation tho.
          	  
          	  And just because you might be Aro, it doesn't mean you can't have relationships. Queerplatonic relationships for one. 
          	  
          	  All I can really say tho is do some research, and just make sure to communicate. The only one who can identify how you feel is you :3
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Ugly_Otter

this message may be offensive 
I’m having a bit of sexuality crisis rn and I need some help.
          
          So I’m gay. I’m attracted to girls in the spicy kind of way. Known that for about 3-4 years now. But now I’m going through a crisis about that. The gist is that I think I might be Aromantic(lack of romantic attraction)
          
          I have a girlfriend and we’ve been together since May. She’s amazing and I like talking to her… and that’s about it. I don’t feel the urge to kiss her or hug or really tell her “I love you”(though I do exchange that with her but she says it first). I don’t know why but I just don’t really feel much. Like we’re dating but I don’t feel like we’re GIRLFRIENDS. I feel like I just have a really close friend. 
          
          This is not the first time I’ve felt like this. Every partner I’ve had hasn’t really held much weight on my heart and I was quick to leave because of it. I don’t know why I can’t stay and have a standard relationship. Is this me not being able to differentiate between different types of love or am I just an asshole with commitment problems?

Ugly_Otter

@qwertyuiop1234abc Thank you. I’m not against the ace spectrum but I just. It’s a realization that I’m still trying to process. If I am, I am. I’m just experiencing a lot of feelings that tie with it like guilt, anxiety, and doubt.
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qwertyuiop1234abc

@Ugly_Otter 
            Aight, first off, there's nothing wrong with being aromantic, if you do end up identifying as it. From the sounds of things, you might actually BE aromantic, or at least on the spectrum. 
            
            Quite frankly, it sounds to me like you might also be lithoromantic. Lithoromantic is defined as romantic attraction that fades once reciprocated. I'm not trying to tell you your orientation tho.
            
            And just because you might be Aro, it doesn't mean you can't have relationships. Queerplatonic relationships for one. 
            
            All I can really say tho is do some research, and just make sure to communicate. The only one who can identify how you feel is you :3
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_yourlovexx

Why does no one ever reply to your posts? And why does it say your depressed? DO I NEED TO KILL SOMEONE, IF I DO I AM ALREADY PLANNING THEIR MURDER. YOU WILL NOT FIND THE LOCATION OF THE PLANNING. DON'T WORRY I GOT IT OKAY.

Ugly_Otter

It’s because depression is genetic in my family. Also Idk. I’m not that big of a writer on Wattpad
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Ugly_Otter

Do you ever just have this feeling of “ I have to be fine with everything because even being mildly annoyed by it isn’t socially acceptable”? Because sometimes it inhibits me from experiencing negative emotions properly. I just got the cast list for the senior high musical. I worked my ass off in Audition to get the part I wanted. I didn’t get it and got pushed to ensemble. I have to be a good sport and accept it happily because that’s proper etiquette, but inside I just want to scream at my director. But no, I have to be fine with it. I have to send in an email of confirmation stating that the role is now mine even if the role seemed like a pity role. I don’t really know what to do because I get all these congratulations from others but all I wanna do is go die hole(not really but you know what I mean)

Ugly_Otter

Hello. I have a new book up. It’s a rant book about one of my favorite musicals. I made it as a guide to people who saw the movie and have absolutely no idea what they just saw. I will dive into the story, it’s origins, the revamp, and controversy concerning the musical. Please read, I have worked far too hard on it.

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Ugly_Otter

Has anyone ever realized that the majority of when we say “I’m fine” it has a negative connotation? Like:
          “Are you okay?”
          “I’m fine.”
          
          Rather than:
          
          “Are you okay?”
          “I’m okay.”
          
          There is such a difference between the subtext. “I’m fine” is just a coverup because it’s such a neutral feeling. Feeling “fine” is neither happy nor sad. While “I’m okay” indicates security. Though it is fairly neutral, “I’m okay” often gives the subtext of contentment. Which is why if someone says “I’m fine” they most certainly aren’t. 
          
          Idk I’m ranting.