MyWilltoLive

MERRY CHRISTMAS, HAPPY HANUKA/KWANZA etc.etc. hows it going everybody i hope your having a good christmas or whatever it is you guys celebrate. i hope that your all with the people you love doin he things you love because at the end of the day you only have that one life. so you should do all that you can day in and day out, do whatever it is you feel like doing(NOTHING ILLEGAL GOT THAT). SO GO OUT CONFESS YOUR FEELINGS HAVE FUN WITH YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY, MAKE MERRY SING SONGS DO WHATEVER IT IS YOU WANT(again please don't be stupid and take it too literal...or maybe not literal enough). oh right and one more thing before i got back to whatever it was i was doin. you can remeber the past all you want, it's reliving those past moments that can torture you the most now i'm not saying that every moment in your past is crappy i'm saying don't let those crappy moments keep you down don't run from them either. you acknowledge them and then learn from them as to better yourself in the future.  alright i've said all that i need to SO GET MOVING. MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR 
          
          (the ultimate otaku then went back to his unfinished chapters that night before remembering the time, and getting some sleep for some energy to spend with his family)

now i too must take a break because school's a pain in my ass? no rectum? or maybe i should just pull a Scottish accent and say i pain in my rear end. regardless i won't publish or write a dam thing until school calms down and my senior sleep schedule is stabilized. 
          alright i think i got everything covered so uhh bye for now and umm take care as well as uhhh watch overlord season 1, 2, and 3 binge those suckers i know i would *cough cough* because i've seen it all and want a fourth season and you should to *cough cough*

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why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?

i believe I should uh share one of my experiences before i forget but then again it's more of a constant temporary feeling really. anyway have you ever gotten the feeling that you never belong  or that you are more of a observer meaning like your fine with just being their just to be their or never being able to fully I guess uh well not compensate but fit in well with most groups. I mean yeah sure you can some times relate and you might have a few things in common with people but do ya ever get the feeling of I dunno loneliness that doesn't feel all that bad or your alright with just slowly fading away and becoming a memory
          anyway that's just me rambling on about my own weird life that I do enjoy living so peace

well*streches*looks like im going to have to fight harder than ever before so please wish me luck

so through out my entire 8th grade year I've learned many many things and some of those things I'm proud of as of others I'm not but I found it was worth it it was worth the wait it was worth the fun the hardships and helping but most importantly it was worth it by spending it with the people you care about the most your family and friends some days back when was a 8th grader I felt like giving up or not caring anymore but by the end of each day something told me to push forward for you have a long amazing quest to do and to never give up or lose hope which is also how I'm here talking to all of you today and I'd like to say thank you for everything you've done for me and I love you all deeply

I must read yo stories XD