I want to share a little something about my life with you guys. These past few weeks, we'll tomorrow will be a month, has been the happiest of my entire life. Unexpectedly, and without at all looking for it, I met someone. And the scariest part of all this, is that it is as though he was brought to life from the depths of my mind and heart. It is so different with him, that I think for the first time, I now know what peace feels like. With him, everything is quiet and harmonious inside me, I feel like I could finally rest. It's so scary at the same time that everyday he shows me what I would have never met or seen had I given up. He is honestly like, every beautiful thing in life gathered in one person. He's patient, supportive, caring, kind, understanding, loving. It's so different because for the first time, I can see what a healthy relationship looks like. And how toxicly drowned I was before. He shows me everyday that life is beautiful, and for someone who has such high anxiety and stress, he calms me. And teaches me how to be calm. He has this thing where he likes to tell me to "relax" and "chill", and it's sort of a joke between us, but he has no idea how much he can calm me in just a few words. I wanted to share this beautiful part of my life with you all, because I honestly can't even word out the amount of relief I feel with him. Meeting him, was like letting out a breath of air, exhaling after holding my breath for so long. With him, I don't have to pretend to be strong and hold myself together, with him I can crumble and break and he holds me together. It's so scary to meet a meet someone whom you've dreamt of all your life and who is exactly what I need. It's like, it feels like he was sent to me in my darkest time, to be my light.
I'm totally ranting now but I just feel so happy.