YnWeasley123

hello loves! hope you're all doing well. if you can take few minutes out of your lives, please visit my yt channel (don't see old vids, they're TRASHY). it's @ctrlaltkpop. thank you. have a good day <33

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QYNzp1rMnhM&t=321s
          this case just infuriates me

My friend was telling me about a girl he has a crush on, no, loves. And he described her as looking like me but more beautiful and cuter and I was like "Yeah, yeah, boy's in love, I'll cut him some slack" and then he APOLOGIZED the next day because he saw on a reel that girls don't like it when someone praise other girls(which is not true) but he's so cute!!!

My friend(boy) told me 'I love you' and it was in the cutest most innocent and platonic way ever!!!

Hiiii babyyyyy your page is so aesthetic and cute<3 how are youuuu

Everything was going well.....and I fucked it al up. I always do.

TRAUMA DUMPING!! YAY!!!
          So, when I was 9, my sister(cousin) got married and her husband's nephew was around 7-8 years older than me. And my sister always used to tell me how he used to hit on her (red flag!!!) despite her being married. 
          And then a few years later, when I was 11 or 12, I got a call from her and I picked it up and it was casual. Until she told me that that boy has tattooed my name, AN ELEVEN YEAR'S OLD NAME, between his fingers. I freaked out and hung up. And for a few hours, I was crying. Mind you, no one's at home except my brother who's 6 years younger than me. And then I was constantly anxious that my parents would find out and I would be blamed.
          Of course it would not have been the case but yeah...
          And then last year, my grandma passed away so we were going to my village on a train and the whole compartment was booked by my family and then we found out that that boy was on the train too.
          Fun fact: It was on that train that I first listened to Skz's songs. 
          So, I was just looking out the window with earbuds in my ears and then I felt someone tap my shoulder. I turned around to see him. And I turned back without saying anything. Usually I'm a bright and cheerful person (@zcq365 know) but my family knew something was off. And then he had the audacity to say "I came for you." with that DISGHOSTING smile. 
          And that was the last time I saw him. And the sad thing is, when I told this story to my friends(two girls), like 2 days ago, they told me their SA encounters. And we are in the stage that we have started periods like only 2-3 years ago. 
          If you ask most girls to give you stories like these, they will.
          Not every boy has made a girl uncomfortable, but every girl has felt uncomfortable.
          Not every boy, but this is not about boys.

Am I in love? Whenever she laughs, I feel my stomach turn. Whenever she smiles, it's the cutest smile ever. Whenever she is around me...I feel...safe. Whenever we are on video call, I just...stare at her. Or when she talks, all my attention is towards her. Whenever she's with someone else, I feel angry. Is this love?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

Idk if you all remember but I posted back on 26 November that I was going on a hiatus for some time due to an entrance exam. I GOT FUCKING SELECTED!!!