Zayla-chan

I need mental help Q^Q
          
          Aside from that how is everybody? :D
          
          

*****THIS CAN BE IGNORED IT'S ANOTHER RANDOM RANT*****
          
          
          
          
          
          I love life! Look I never thought I'd say this EVER, but the fact that this guy called me "dummy" and now my whole day is filled with joy! AND HE SAID THAT YESTERDAY! Not said, but he messaged me and it's not him calling me stupid, but it's the playful joking dummy (just so nobody misunderstood that) there's more to it but I am not saying since nobody needs to know everything and pretty sure nobody cares.
          
          THIS IS LITERALLY THE FIRST GUY I'VE EVER LIKED and I've been mega crushing on him for about 6 going on 7 months and he is so lucky I like him or I'd be so mad at him for confusing me so much! Q^Q
          
          BUT I work with him today and I am excited! This day couldn't be better!
          
          Why am I so happy that he called me a dummy?! If it were anyone else I'd kick them but he said it so I'm cool with it.
          
          BUT LISTEN TO THIS! He literally taps my foot with his everytime he walks past me or lightly elbow taps me (and I'm the only one he does that to/as far as I know) and I mean it when I say if anyone else did that I'd have problems but he does it and I go home fangirling every single time! 
          
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(Just a vent you can ignore. I just needed to put it somewhere for me to look back on and judge myself later.)
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          BUT WHYYYY do I make things more complicated then they need to be? I feel like I did something wrong when I'm told I didn't and I'm just overthinking but I know I tend to overthink A LOT but I can't help it and then things become weird when I try not to make it but it does and now I have no clue what to do and I have to deal with it today even though there's snow outside and I have work and I'm probably going to have to take orders while i'm still freaking out in my head and the customers are gonna think I ruined their day but I wasn't trying to and I KNOW I HAVE ISSUES OKAY?! If I could reboot myself I would but I am STRUGGLING to do so!
          
          Why do I have to exist today? Can't I go away for like a month and come back when things are better?!
          
          And my vision just got blurry/hazy or whatever just now and I almost panicked even more than I am right now but it's probably because i'm kinda crying right now. Q^Q
          
          I wanna go in a hole and just stay there.....

I'm taking writing request if anyone has something they'd like written. I'll make a request book if I get one and tag you in the request unless you'd prefer I didn't.
          
          If anyone does have something they'd like written just message me or respond here!
          
          Chances are nobody will, but I need inspiration!

I wanna either make a new story or continue one I haven't finished but I'm lacking inspiration.....

Dude it's cold af why do I have school!

Okay, I haven't updated in ages but I am feeling the creative spark now. My friend Luke and I started a collab on this story that kind of started when he said something at lunch and I had an idea come from it and right now we are working on it and I will post it here. I might actually see about getting this published? It's turning out amazing in my opinion. I hope it's going to peak alot of interest since it's something I am actually proud of! I am proud of all my fanfics and other stories and this one I am dead set on finishing!

Anyone wanna take a survey? It's for my business class you can put random answers I just need responses
          
          It's on school for tutoring an stuff
          
          https://forms.office.com/Pages/ResponsePage.aspx?id=4rV5STcZSkGY3z46QHp5Xo-VgR5fN7ZBpC2Xlie5h0dUQTdLSE1BMVE4NlFNOE0zUFRQREgzVjkxTS4u

I question my sanity. I know I'm not the only person out there that reads an announcement and says nothing. So I'm calling out those people, including myself! I'm lazy and idk where to start on my unfinished fics, so pleasure if you are reading one of them and wants it updated tell me which one it is and I will update it! Or if you want to read a fic that you can't find tell me the ship and I will write itttttt I'm seriously bored and school starts in a week, I'm excited!
          
          Seriously.....I have no motivation for writing and I'm bored and lazy. ;^;

Got into Motionless in White, freaking love their music.