You know, I'm not going to point anyone out, but for the people who act as my friend, and act like they care, but really just use me as a backup friend,
Fck you.
I am a real person, I am human, and I have feelings as well. If you don't want to be friends with me, then just fcking say so. Don't try to fake being honest, bc it won't help any. Yes, it will hurt me. Yes, it will break me. But at least I know you don't want to be friends with me, instead of just having anxiety and depression thinking if my "friends" care about me or not.
You probably know who you are too.
I noticed. Don't think I didn't notice bc I'm not coming to you and talking to you. I know your talking about me behind my back. I know you hate or dislike me. I know you think I'm annoying. So don't you FCKING DARE tell me, "but I'm being honest! Your an amazing friend and we all love you-" bc that's bull.
So from now on, if you truly want to get my attention and be my friend, or even start up a conversation with me about something, you can come to me. I'm not coming to you. So from now on ill stay quiet.
And I don't mind you venting, I don't mind you coming to me and venting and complaining. But if you only just do that, and you don't treat me like a friend, then it's a one sided friendship. And I'm doing all other hard work to try and keep our friendship together. So keep in mind in all of this. Just know you certain people need to think about your actions and words, and I'm done being quiet with how I feel. Good day or night.
Also you can be pissed all you want, and I won't care. This is how I feel, and I want to vent too, and join in on conversations without anyone ignoring me or pushing me out of stuff.
