Why are you here...


Why is anyone here?...

But that's just like life...

We continue to waste our lives away, leaving some small imprint on the world...

Some people make bigger imprints...

Is leaving our name on the world our real reason for existence?

But that would also mean the horrible people in history are the real winners in life...

What is the meaning of existence, if not to suffer. Turning a blind eye to the catastrophes and tragedies of the world, continuing on with our pointless lives.

Just a small cog in a machine as it continues churning, never stopping for a second.


That in it of itself can be beautiful.

Not everything has to be meaningful.

Sometimes just enjoying the simplicity and pointlessness of life can be one of the most elegant things someone can do.

Taking a break.

Staring at the ceiling.

Binge watching a long show you don't feel really particular about.

There are days I think that all of humanity, me included, should just disappear, but there are also days where I don't feel that. I just think about how everyone is trying their best.

We fear the unknown

And every second of the day is unknown to us.

We just try our best to live for another day, even just another second, before we're ready to be laid to rest.


not everyday has to be meaningful.

Nobody knows what the future holds.

Just keep on moving and one day a purpose will find you.

And maybe it won't.

That is still fine.

Not everyone can live the same life, some are just meant to happen, and some are meant to find the cure for a dangerous disease.

Either way, they still affect the world, even if my a small margin.

So on to the other stuff:

I love anime and drawing. I like fantasy stories, usually to escape reality lol. Sorry about the whole rant above, have fun lol.

Instagram where I post art: @over126_fear

Current books: gay and isekai
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