Hi
I am changed. I am not an army anymore, although BTS helped a lot in my depression, but I am not the same girl anymore who used to cry upon listening spring day, or laughing while watching Run Bts or calming down while listening to magic shop. Being an army wasn't a phase for me, no infact I was an army when almost no one in my country knew their name, being an army shaped me and helped me. But dragging anything sweet can become sour, I am happy to leave that part of me behind as I change. I am happy to feel nostalgic when I hear someone say they're an army. I am happy to leave this fandom officially, as I leave my old self behind.
I don't know who is reading this, or why but I just wanted to say sorry. Maybe you'll find it in yourself to forgive me, just know that I cannot physically bring myself to write about someone or something I am not so passionate about. I don't know when I'll learn how to delete wattpad account or maybe forget about it and that it even existed and my account remains in this app as a part of my chapter, but for now I am deleting to never come back (Maybe I'll delete this account some other time). I am leaving with a smile, I am leaving boys with a smile. I wish for them to achieve greatness like I am trying to achieve now. I wasn't an army for so long but still tried to write stories, then I just couldn't. I would be cheating them and you all (me too) . So here I am giving you all a farewell. I hope just like me you'll forget reality for a while in here and just like me you'll create a reality so beautiful you won't need to hide or forget it anymore.
I am starting a new chapter in my life and I wish to leave this old one with a smile and only happy memories.
To anyone still reading, I wish you happiness. In any shape, size or form.
And you know what leaving them doesn't hurt that much, maybe because I know there are so many of you all to love them. Maybe even more that I did.
Bye.
