_melanchxly

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ayo haven’t been here in two years, what the fuck is up bitches.

_melanchxly

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I've been gone for awhile...I'm scared to open my notifications tbh. But anyway, sorry for leaving but I needed a break. The constant pressure from myself to continuously provide was exhausting lmao. Anyway, nevertheless; I'm about to start fucking high school...and I'm terrified :)) 
          
          I'll try and update when I can but my parents are pushing for several extra curricular activities so I'll get Valedictorian when graduation comes around. So yeah, who knows when I'll be back, or if things go back to normal but stay safe everyone! I love you guys, thanks to those who stuck around <3

BlondeLADD

@_melanchxly go luck with high school! It's cool if u stay in a good friend group. I love you!!! Miss you:))
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BlondeLADD

I love you:)

BlondeLADD

@NatalieVerschoor just thought you would need to hear that, cause who doesn't?
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_melanchxly

Have I gotten re-obsessed with Hamiton? Absolutely :)))))))

_melanchxly

i simp for the cast...and no one can tell me otherwise
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Murrah5

@_melanchxly 
            
            [SLOWLY DESCENDS INTO INSANITY AS WELL AS A NERDY SONG MODE]
            
            DONT WAIT FOR YOUR SHOT TO GO CUZ YOU NEVER REALLY KNOW FOR SURE WHO LIVES WHO DIES & WHOSE GONNA TELL YOUR STORY WHEN THE WORLD IS/WAS WIDE ENOUGH FOR YOU TO GO TO WHERE STUFF HAPPENS SO ITS BETTER TO STAY ALIVE TILL YOURE SATISFIED CUZ YOU CANT SAY NO TO THIS SO WHENEVER YOULL BE BACK WE ARE WAITING IN THE WINGS FOR YOU... WELL BE HERE IN GENERAL... WEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!
            
            I WAS OLDER THAN YOU ARE NOW WHEN I WAS WONDERING IF YOULL EVER BACK DOWN OR NEVER LEARN TO TAKE YOUR TI-I-I-IME?!?!?
            
            I COULDNT HELP IT CUZ
            HAMILTON IS AWESOME LOL
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_melanchxly

hey guys i know it’s been awhile, and first of all I’d like to apologize for that. I’m gonna try and get some updates going, but i kind of don’t have a place to update on. My parents don’t let me have the app on my phone, and my chromebook got returned to my school so i cant just spontaneously update at 4am anymore. So umm, i have a job now...and it’s only gonna get worse from here. And besides that, I’m trying to keep my mental state even somewhat intact because i have to keep up a social reputation so i don’t get disowned lmao. I’ve ended up relapsing a bunch of times after i lost my ex bsf due to a fight, and my grandpa is in the hospital and honestly i don’t even know what to do. It’s like my life is falling apart and I just have to pretend it’s not, and i have to pretend to be happy because it’s my “personality.” So yeah, I’m so sorry for not updating, and I’ll try when I can :) I love you guys, and thanks for being there. If this is goodbye, let it be known that you guys gave me a hope i never thought i could get back...and I’ll see you on the other side <3

BlondeLADD

@_melanchxly k one, do not apologize for that. It's understand with the situation you've been thrown into, I understand what you're going through. It seems my life has gone up in flames for awhile now but keep your head held high because things WILL get better for you I promise. Please take your time, I don't know when you'll be able to see this but when you do I hope it brings a smile to your beautiful face:) I love you, always here if you need to vent. You have both my snapchat and Instagram so if you ever need someone I'm here:) 
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lumos_candour

Life’s rough and it really sounds like you’re going through the thick of it. But from a random person on the internet, you’ve got this. Don’t worry about updating, focus on yourself and making sure you’re okay because you’re far more important ❤️
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