dear cam, it's been 2 months without you. i'm late to posting this message because i don't know what to say. i said it when i first found out, and i knew what to say when it was 1 month after you were taken away, but for some reason, i don't know what to say now. i guess when it was only a couple weels after you were taken, i still had hope for this being a lie. but it's been 2 months. i keep checking your instagram, hoping something would happen, of course, nothing did. but i will say this, i didn't know what pain was. i knew physical pain, such as a sprained ankle or a scraped knee. but i didn't know what emotional pain was, until i had to experience it. on july 7, i woke up and checked instagram, like usual. i have to admit, i wasn't as big of a fan as i am now, i kind of forgot about you a bit. but when i went on instagram, the first post i saw was of you. i read the caption and it said what happened and such. a wave of memory washed through me and i started panicking. i went to your account and saw that this wasn't a rumor. it was real, it was not a drill. tears brimmed the edge of my eyes as i looked through pictures of you, the memories hitting me. i can't believe i ever let go of you, because you were the best thing to happen to us. i never knew how much i neede you, how much we all needed you. it has been so hard to cope with this. knowing you're gone, and knowing there will never be another person like you. my heart is broken, a piece of it broke off and maybe it's with you now. i hope it is. but my love for you could never be put into words. and the pain i feel, will never be described perfectly. but i know that it feels like the end of the world to me. but i hope to see you again.
