agoblin_namedrat

but like what if instead of doing my schoolwork i just
          	
          	like
          	
          	cried
          	
          	...
          	
          	ahaha my dog died during my geometry zoom class two days ago and now my depression is back!! my happiness was very short lived haha
          	
          	i freaking hate myself :)

agoblin_namedrat

holy crap it’s here
          
          it’s here
          
          well i mean it’s at my grandmas house but ITS HERE FWHSHSHWHEHS
          
          I FEEL SO BAD FOR HIDING THIS FROM MY PARENTS BUT I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT THEY WOULD REACT BADLY (honestly i don’t know how they would react but i know it wouldn’t be good or accepting to say the least)
          
          my grandma is the best person on this planet and nobody can change my mind ùwú

agoblin_namedrat

@Mapple13shade i’m gonna be flat
            
            holy crap i’m actually gonna be flat
            
            i’m terrified and excited and happy all at the same time aghhhhhh
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agoblin_namedrat

guess who just found out their mom is 
          r a c i s t
          
          it’s meeeeee
          
          i mean i kinda already knew that my mom and dad were racist but this just sorta conformed it.
          
          now i really have the whole bundle!! trump supporters, racists, homophobes, and transphobes!! wow this household is just so loving and accepting :)

Mapple13shade

@agoblin_namedrat not necessarily 
            
            Idk we would have to have a talk about them for me to let you know
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agoblin_namedrat

@insomniabelike nooooo
            
            they’re good people, really. i just don’t agree with some of their values and it sometimes makes me uncomfortable.
            
            i mean, they’ve gotta be good parents...
            
            ...right?
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agoblin_namedrat

you know what i just ✨l o v e✨
          
          when youre just expressing yourself and your body and youre actually feeling a little bit confident today-
          
          and then your parents body shame you because you dont shave and “girls should be shaving”
          
          like?? you wont let me shave the hair on my head why should i shave the hair on my body??
          
          plus ive been feeling suuuuper dysphoric lately so thanks for that-
          
          AND THEN YOU POKE FUN AT ME FOR CONSTANTLY WEARING HOODIES
          
          AND ASK ME WHY I ISOLATE MYSELF??????

Mapple13shade

@agoblin_namedrat I’m sorry I wish thare was something I could do to help
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agoblin_namedrat

i just had a really bad sensory overload and now there's marks on my arm where i dug my nails in and they're not going away help

agoblin_namedrat

@Mapple13shade i would much rather clicky clack my nails then not have them thank you very much
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agoblin_namedrat

@Mapple13shade uhhhhh no
            
            my nails >:3
            
            plus i don’t like the way it feels when they’re not there, so tbh it would probably be worse :/
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agoblin_namedrat

holy crap my grandma is getting me a binder this is the happiest day of my life fwhshajwoh
          
          now i actually have a reason to get up in the morning!!! and i thought it had left but turns out i just needed to make my own reason and now it’s like :0

agoblin_namedrat

help.

AmongTheDyingStars

@agoblin_namedrat    Do you want to talk about it..? We can move it to PMs if that makes it better..
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agoblin_namedrat

@AmongTheDyingStars the only thing keeping me even a little bit mentally stable is leaving me. i’m scared. that thing was the only thing that made me get out of bed in the morning and now it’s leaving. i’ve been crying for the past hour. 
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agoblin_namedrat

it’s not self harm if you don’t bleed ;)

agoblin_namedrat

@Virgilhasanxiety hmmmm, perhaps... i will consider that next time i see a very sharp looking pin in my vicinity...
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octoboom_

@agoblin_namedrat Can't believe im the one saying this but.. Just don't... 
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agoblin_namedrat

i know it’s dumb since i only have like 12 follows who probably don’t even care but i really just need to vent out my feelings
          
          i’m feeling really depressed and sad and tired and cold and anxious and i just want to snuggle up with my pillows and cry myself to sleep but i have a butt-ton if homework to do and i’m super stressed out and i don’t have any coping mechanisms

Mapple13shade

@agoblin_namedrat hope thay don’t go to crazy
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