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Fully just went back and read all of my status updates on here back to 2015 ngl am going to throw up why did I over share always 

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My mum called me like an hour ago by accident and she was drunk and I didn't even know she still had my number?? And she just shouted at me a lot for like a solid minute until I hung up and I had huge panic attack and holy shit I fucking hate her. I thought I wouldn't ever have to hear her voice again but then this happens and I'm just so freaked I haven't talked to her in 4 years and all she does is shout at me I hate that I had to live with them for 15 years.

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Today was fully so good apart from the morning cause I had a sort of panic attack type thing but it lasted for hours and it made my OCD go mad (I literally had to get both my hands completely bandaged cause I took so much skin off washing them so much that they were just covered in blood and raw and it's so painful) but after all of that then me and my favourite person were watching Marvel movies and we had food and it was nice 

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Sometimes I worry that I'm too much of a hypochondriac and then I remember The Brain Tumour and how everyone thought the symptoms of that were just me being a hypochondriac and then I feel a bit better about calling my neurologist every time I get a headache lmao