asshefalls-

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ok so am i the only one here who romanticizes lockdown when i have school and romanticizes school when lockdown occurs ? like WHY DOES MY BRAIN HAVE TO DO THIS WEIRD SHIT ?
          	
          	anyway, i hope you're all fine. it's currently the third lockdown in france and it's been two weeks i'm half at school, half online but it's okay now, even though it's kinda disturbing (one day almost everything is normal, i'm anxious and i have to get up early, the other one is chill and i'm at home...) ! it allows me to have more time for myself and on top of that, spring is here so i'm happy !
          	
          	wbu, how are you doing those days ? tell me !

asshefalls-

@Coccimag05 it annoys me that the government takes such a big amount of time with the vaccine. i mean, we have the solution rn ! why are we always failing at some point ? first it was the masks, then the tests, and now the vaccines !
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asshefalls-

@Coccimag05  that's pretty smart and logic ! i understood and i think you're right lmao, i'll let you talk about this to Jean-Michel Blanquer and to the virus XD
          	  
          	  personnally, i also think that when we are sick of a situation (school for example), we only remember of the good sides of lockdown, in order to idk, reassure ourselves ? so that we wish that there was one more lockdown to be happy and feel peaceful again ? but then when the lockdown does occur, we remember that it's super frustrating to do nothing all day long or to be stuck at home... my brain does that i think lmao
          	  
          	  oooh thank you ! i would like to post more but it's really annoying to switch accounts on wattpad, you have to disconnect then connect to your other account... but it means the world to me so thanks ❤
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asshefalls-

@ultracellist  yeah that's my problem too lmao : i wanna go back to school but not to mine
          	  
          	  ooh that's really great ! i admire you for doing this, i would like to do such things too !
          	  
          	  that's pretty great too lmao ! it reminds me that my mom get rid of some of her jewels recently and she has such a good taste so i asked her if i could take some and she said yes hehe
          	  
          	  have a good day too !
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poetichotmess

Hey, I love your bio. I noticed you love poetry. I do, too. If you write some, or have some written, I'd love to give it a read. 
          
          Stay safe. 
          
          Happy writing!
          
          Ink and Wander

asshefalls-

@InkAndWander ooh, i'll definitely check out once i have some time ! thank you ;') they genuinely look great !
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poetichotmess

@asshefalls- 
            
            Sharing the link to the first one here :)
            https://www.wattpad.com/1026799422
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poetichotmess

@InkAndWander Posting is up to you. I encourage it because it feels really good to share what you've written and create a small community for yourself; and to be heard and understood. That's some of the perks. If you want these, of course. 
            You can however write for yourself and not want to share it, that's okay too. 
            I have a couple completed poetry collections, starting with the one called Poetry, followed by Cathartic, Masquerade, Compass, and a new one called Reverie. 
            
            ✨
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asshefalls-

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ok so am i the only one here who romanticizes lockdown when i have school and romanticizes school when lockdown occurs ? like WHY DOES MY BRAIN HAVE TO DO THIS WEIRD SHIT ?
          
          anyway, i hope you're all fine. it's currently the third lockdown in france and it's been two weeks i'm half at school, half online but it's okay now, even though it's kinda disturbing (one day almost everything is normal, i'm anxious and i have to get up early, the other one is chill and i'm at home...) ! it allows me to have more time for myself and on top of that, spring is here so i'm happy !
          
          wbu, how are you doing those days ? tell me !

asshefalls-

@Coccimag05 it annoys me that the government takes such a big amount of time with the vaccine. i mean, we have the solution rn ! why are we always failing at some point ? first it was the masks, then the tests, and now the vaccines !
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asshefalls-

@Coccimag05  that's pretty smart and logic ! i understood and i think you're right lmao, i'll let you talk about this to Jean-Michel Blanquer and to the virus XD
            
            personnally, i also think that when we are sick of a situation (school for example), we only remember of the good sides of lockdown, in order to idk, reassure ourselves ? so that we wish that there was one more lockdown to be happy and feel peaceful again ? but then when the lockdown does occur, we remember that it's super frustrating to do nothing all day long or to be stuck at home... my brain does that i think lmao
            
            oooh thank you ! i would like to post more but it's really annoying to switch accounts on wattpad, you have to disconnect then connect to your other account... but it means the world to me so thanks ❤
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asshefalls-

@ultracellist  yeah that's my problem too lmao : i wanna go back to school but not to mine
            
            ooh that's really great ! i admire you for doing this, i would like to do such things too !
            
            that's pretty great too lmao ! it reminds me that my mom get rid of some of her jewels recently and she has such a good taste so i asked her if i could take some and she said yes hehe
            
            have a good day too !
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asshefalls-

hi ! how are doing ?
          to be honest, life has been pretty tough recently but i'm fine now ! just went through a lot of anxiety those last two weeks, but i feel better since a few days.
          btw my school is now half from home, half in person (because of the third lockdown that is occuring in France at the moment) and it's actually not that bad. i would even say it's a relief to have some time for myself, and not only spent on studying (it should allow me to write all day long but guess what... i just procrastinate everything, what a surprise !), even though i really miss my friends (luckily i still get to see some of them, since we are in the same group).
          
          btw : i'm seriously thinking about creating a rantbook on this account and i wanted to know who was interested ? i really want a place to talk about my passions or whatever goes through my head (tons of things lmao), maybe a little bit about me but not much (i swear !).
          
          tell me about your life at the moment, i wanna how it's going. have you done anything that you're proud of recently ?
          (sadly in my case, no)
          i wish y'all a very good day !
          niamh
          
          p.s : i'm always opened to talk to whoever needs it
          p.p.s : i dunno why but i'm like, super insecure about posting an annoucement here ? please tell me if i make any mistake lol, i'm definitely too stressed out when it comes to talking to people in english - i mean i love it, but i'm always scared they'll think i'm bad at it and stupid ?

asshefalls-

@Coccimag05 it's read lmao, red is the way you pronounce it !
            yes, i genuinely think people often forget it's a mental illness and it needs to be treated with a therapist. crying for no reason at night dosen't mean you have depression, and someone who has depression may not cry all the time or always feel sad and worthless ! so many stereotypes come along with depression when actually they're often wrong. it leads to ton of misbeliefs that we currently can observe in our society...
            ooh, keep going, things will get better ! good luck to you ❤
            ok, i'll do it, i swear ! thank you for your enthusiasm !
            and you're right, the main purpose is to get better !
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asshefalls-

@ultracellist  OK I SWEAR I'LL MAKE IT SOON
            
            ooh, good luck to you ! i know how hard it can be to deal with sometimes so i wish you'll overcome it ❤
            yeah it's the same for me ! it pisses me off when some people do that or when they complain but won't acknowledge that other people may struggle with anxiety too and that maybe, it's overwhelming for them too ! just like depression, some people tend to diagnosize themselves without consulting a therapist and it's so annoying because it makes people who actually have anxiety and deal with it on a daily basis look like they're lying or trying to "show off" when they don't !
            (yeah i know, don't worry lmao - i dunno if i ever talked about it but i have been diagnosized by a therapist years ago, but thanks for your support ! i appreciate it)
            
            lol it's been such a long time since i haven't done sport ! and it doesn't really bother me lmao ;')
            ooh i hope you'll be fine ! i know it probably doesn't help but your weight doesn't define your worth or your beauty and it's ok to gain weight when you're going through a tough moment (well it's always ok to gain weight, what i mean is that you gain weight faster when you're stressed out)
            lmao it does the exact same for me, dunno why XD
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Krkreee

@asshefalls- i'm just like you, been really stressed out lately ( i don't like saying i have anxiety cuz it's not true, to me anxiety is more of a chronical (??) thing, and i'm soooooo freaking fed up with all these ppl  in comment sections on yt or stuff like that being like "omg i have anxiety i have anxiety omg" like it's a trend or sth when you're just a lil bit stressed out and THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO REALLY HAVE ANXIETY IN REAL LIFE (don't know if this makes sense but to cut it short i just think that the word "anxiety" is waayyyyyy overused and it PISSES ME OFF) (but ofc i don't blame you !! i believe it entirely when you say you have anxiety :))) and you have all my support btw if it's the case)
            
            gosh i need to calm down
            
            i too have been doing nothing else than studying (and sport and music, which are still kind of studying since i barely have time to play what i really enjoy playing), like,  i don't feel like i have any time left for myself, and going to bed past midnight combined with stress (which means relaxing on food, luv that) clearly does NOT help with my weight and i hate it, makes me feel so insecure to see that i've gained weight, but at the same time i can't go to bed earlier because i procrastinate too much on weekends (what a organized person i am)
            
            oh my i'm really opening myself here, english has superpowers lmao
            
            well i'm gonna stop here, have a good day :))))))))))
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asshefalls-

hey ! do you guys listen to podcasts ?
          
          i used to not (my brain ALWAYS ended up thinking about something else and i lost the thread) but since a few months, i started listening to podcasts (in order to be sure to stay focused on it, i do something else at the same time, like taking notes or doing household chores) and it's so interesting !
          
          recently, i listened to those two ones and as i found them captivating, i wanted to share them with you !
          
          ☆ so the first one was called "using your voice is a political choice" (from ted talks daily), and it was told by a poet who talked about self confidence (the fact that poetry is for everyone, even if you don't view yourself as a genius), the legacy of her ancestors as a black woman and abt the importance to be aware of your voice and to use it (here in an artistic way). i loved it and it was rather short (ten minutes, even less i think) so here is the link :
          https://open.spotify.com/episode/5w9BiQx3JuqmTZYxLOCcfl?si=bd_JRteYRjqUca2od2FHHQ&utm_source=copy-link
          
          ☆ and the second one is from my favorite podcast ever (the truth doctor podcast, that talks about psychology) and the topic is forgiveness (its process, why it is hard but why it is important and how it can help you to overcome your trauma). here you go :
          https://open.spotify.com/episode/5IZCF39k3fOcrT9yts8f9U?si=CabRr3-LTbCciXjUwzNzoQ&utm_source=copy-link
          
          i really recommend you to listen to them ! if you already have, don't hesitate to share your thoughts about it with me, it's always a pleasure !
          
          have a good day,
          niamh

asshefalls-

@Coccimag05 noo, don't worry, wattpad always deletes my answers to your comments so i know how frustrating it can be to realize only later that you had an answer or a comment but didn't get the notification lmao
            oh that's great ! i guess it should be normal but we both know it's not always the case, so i'm happy for you and your friends !
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asshefalls-

@Coccimag05 yeah it's completely my teacher's fault like she just kept trying to convince me even though i said no many times so at the end i gave up... i'm not the only one lol
            oh my god, this is terrible ! i'm really sorry for them, this guy is a dickhead and i hope he'll get what he deserves ! i hope they'll be fine ❤
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asshefalls-

@Coccimag05  clearly !
            yes, you can say that ;') and how to say... it was not such a disaster but not really great either (my german teacher convinced me to go for an exam i just had a few hours ago, aaand *coughs* why am i such a people pleaser that i couldn't tell her no aaargh). and you ?
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asshefalls-

hey everyone !
          
          i just realized that i actually haven't properly introduced myself so, hi, i'm niamh. i have a french acc here on wattpad since two years and a half and i wanted to create an english one for a while since i love that language (on top of that i really want to improve so i hope it'll help).
          
          even though i haven't been able to be much active recently (thanks to my lovely teachers who gave me so many homeworks - jk, i hate them), i'll try to be more connected here in the next days, i swear !
          
          as i'm currently on holiday, i wanna try to be more present - i'm thinking about some projects i could carry out, like a poetry book or a rantbook (concerning my thoughts about our society or that kind of stuff, not a boring one all about my life, i promise lmao) so tell me if you'd be interested in it !
          
          also one last thing, i truly wanna get better, so it would be a pleasure to talk with every person who would like to (including my french followers - btw thank you for your support, i appreciate it) ;')
          
          take care !
          niamh
          
          p.s : i don't use any translation website so i might make mistakes : if you see one, please tell me about it ! ;')

asshefalls-

@Coccimag05 yeah, exactly ! it's not the most explicit one but it makes the message even more sad and beautiful
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asshefalls-

@Coccimag05 i didn't cry either but i felt something above the tears, like the deep meaning of this anime was so touching and so pure that i couldn't help but be gawked in front of such a masterpiece
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asshefalls-

@Coccimag05  aaw thank you, you're really sweet ! and don't worry about that, my memory is sometimes really huuum, stubborn ? like why the heeeell do i need to remember this song's lyrics but not this maths formula ? it drives me crazy lmao !
            and yeeees i saw it at least four times, it's like my favorite anime (yes you can use that word lol) ever, it's so saaad and beautiful and moving and i-
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-saltyjiin

I see what you did there~
          That's a great way to practice english, good luck on this writing project girl ;)

asshefalls-

@-saltyjiin  what's the point in being kind with you since you're so mean to me *cries tears of sad sadness*
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-saltyjiin

@ -saltyjiin  go and read your Instagram messages you hère ⚆ _ ⚆
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asshefalls-

@-saltyjiin oow, thank you, you're so sweet ! (don't ever forget that day cuz you know you'll never receive a compliment from me again)
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