babygirl386

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At this point I just need someone to listen to me . I’m at such a low point of my life idk what the fuck to do. Idk how to explain my crippling sadness or the fact no one cares about me. I feel so alone it hurts so bad.

babygirl386

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At this point I just need someone to listen to me . I’m at such a low point of my life idk what the fuck to do. Idk how to explain my crippling sadness or the fact no one cares about me. I feel so alone it hurts so bad.

babygirl386

Just a life update: I graduated, turned 18 in January, got a job that pays every week, and I got a boyfriend…I’m surprised somebody actually likes me for me! Anyways we been together for about 4 months soon to be 5 months, I’ll be turning 19 at the end of January and I’m just generally in a happy and healthy place rn☺️I was honestly going through it but I’m happy where my life is run

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Hey everyone so currently it's really late at night and I went to sleep early at like 8 or 9. So I had a dream about the BTS members....it sounds weird because I never dream about kpop members like this or at all. But basically it was more like a horror dream. So basically they found this video tape or pictures with guys like them but they had different kinda non describtive faces. So as obviously as they dig more into the video taped and shit they slowly start to look like the people. And as the go down to the basement of some place I don't even know where!! They see there's a TV and the last tape waiting but they waited just in case it was real. They went upstairs to see if there's a alternate way to do this without being killed or otherwise. As everyone left upstairs jin and I think mingi(I don't know how he got there but I love my baby mingi) stayed behind to shut the door but as jin shut the door to the basement he attacked mingi and basically forced him to watch the tape with him and they instantly had changed faces. Then it kinda turned into like a movie trailer. After that uh it was kinda crazy after that they started killing people, um then the other BTS members went to the basement to check on the others and they was morphed or some shit because the tapes was still rolling and shit. After that they came and seen me because obviously I was with them and they stopped talking to me basically didn't need me anymore and tried different ways to kill me...but I was like there last worry so they would try while they could. After that things got hazy. And it switched to the end.  

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So basically I had got pregnant with jungkook baby before they went downstairs and so when they basically didn't need me I guess it was this girl that one if the members was destined with and when she got pregnant I lost my child. Uh jungkook was trying to kill me/talk to me but(idk what exactly told him not to kill me. It's a dream y'all) I ran away and we was arguing with each other about the lost child and he told me he was sorry and loved me then I realized why I lost the child and that's when met the other girl across themeadow/pond and we talked our differences then became friends. As we went back into the building we took the elevator jungkook left a lil earlier to go somewhere (I didn't feel safe outside by myself so I decided to go with her) as we went inside it was like different elevator for different places. As we got on and was headed inside thinking everything was okay the elevator was ig being controlled by the members and the girl was dropped off in a weird cell thing and she died from some being.
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babygirl386

@babygirl386 this is a long one y'all I'm sorry but it just bothered me and I was scared✌ but it's alot scarier in my dreams then it sounded on text
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babygirl386

Sooo basically I got covidMe my dad ,mom ,sister ,auntie ,cousin and her boyfriend, my nephew, and my grandma we all got it. We were being careful we followed covid guidelines but my auntie she's a CNN in training nurse and she travelled to take care and yk what I'm getting at,so basically she came back home visited my grandma and me while she was sick and have us covid. My sister and her son got sick by my mom because she came to get her son from my mom and dad because they babysit for her while she works(she has no one else to watch him) My mom got sick before the red of my family the next day my dad and I was sick. Then two days later my sister and nephew. We are fine we got over the worst with no casualties but we have the common covid symptoms. I have no smell or taste and I'm really sad bout that because I was reading up and heard of some covid patients not getting either of those back or it taking months to get it back. But our family is fine we are ok and getting over this in the safest way and we're gonna get through this stronger than before. This just made me so sad because I never expected this and I'm definitely pissed at my auntie for she basically tried to kill us. We have a 87 year old auntie in this family that we cherish so much, she is our rock and she could be so careless to get someone that's close to our auntie sick and not think maybe I shouldn't visit others if I'm sick. It disgust me and I believe she did this on purpose. But I can't smell anything but my nose isn't stuffed or anything and I can't taste anything. Like things have no flavoring for me I can taste little but idk how to explain it. But thanks for listening to my rant✌

Azukiel

I hope in the next few weeks. I restart work soon so I’ve been really busy prepping for that as well. Please take care and keep us updated on you and your family! Xx 
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babygirl386

@Azukiel Thank you for taking your time out of your day to check on me.....when's the update sis?
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Azukiel

Yikes! Wishing you a speedy recovery hon! Thanks for reading, voting and commenting on my story The Pharaoh’s Lotus! I do hope you feel better soon!xx 
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