Vinnie

LMAO I FORGOT TO SAY SOMETHING BUT THE TORNADO DIDN'T COME BY MY AREA SO WE'RE ALL GOOD

I just love when I get a tornado warning and then I immediately hear sirens after getting it (I hate tornados)

Btw, speculating and/or theorising that Lizzie is pregnant is creepy and gross no matter how convinced or curious you are!! That's her personal life and nobody else's business but Joel's and her own. NOBODY is owed a confirmation and it is genuinely disgusting to be assuming that she's pregnant at all

//Vent(ish)
          -tws for death + abuse
          
          The concept of grieving a dead abuser is so strange to me and it genuinely makes me upset sometimes, especially on father's day.
          
          I haven't talked much publicly about my father and all the ways he abused me over the time that I lived with him/he was alive, but it was genuinely the worst time of my life. He was the reason that I ended up in a substance abuse recovery program at the ripe age of 15 years old, and also the reason I was forcefully pulled out from it to fall right back into the cycle of addiction that I (still) struggle to break. Not to mention the sexual and emotional abuse he put me through. That man had the tightest chokehold on me for 5 long, gruesome years, and I do not miss him in the slightest.
          
          However, I do grieve him, but it's not the kind of grief that I would feel for someone I love. It's almost like having Stockholm syndrome or feeling like I'm not complete without him/feeling like I rely on the familiarity of the abuse to stay grounded. It also makes me feel guilty for being glad that I'm free from him, knowing that the only reason I'm free is because he's dead. Yet it also makes me angry to see how others grieve him like he was a kind and happy person that never deserved death. 
          
          And that grief and guilt hit me like a motherfucking freight train today when we drove by a cemetery full of people visiting their fathers' graves for father's day. It genuinely felt awful to see so many people miss their fathers when I was glad that I didn't have mine anymore. But ykw, I'm never going to miss him and I'm never going to wish he was still around, so what's the point of feeling guilty when I already feel awful
          
          But anyway I just wanted to get that off my chest. If you read this, thanks for listening <3

Just drove a diesel truck.
          
          You could call me
          
          Vin Diesel
          
          *ba dum tss*

Hey so what if I published physical copies of my books on Amazon haha... what if.. what if I sold physical copies of APBAON on Amazon ahaha.... 
          
          /hj

Idk how many of you have heard the "drama" around Skizzleman lately, but I just want to say something about it really quick.
          
          He is NOT trans/homophobic. And if you genuinely believe that, Imma need you to screw your head back on LMAO
          
          He just doesn't want to deal with the mess (which is EXACTLY what the fandom MADE btw) of conflicting beliefs/values/whatever the fuck. It is VERYYYY obvious that he isn't transphobic or homophobic because he's very close with other mcyts who ARE queer (Cleo is non-binary + bisexual, Gem + Lizzie are bisexual, Scott is gay, Martyn is gynesexual, and Skizz is good friends with all of them). I can guarantee you that if he was trans/homophobic, he wouldn't even be on the life series, much less Hermitcraft, and even lesser a well-known and loved mcyt
          
          Give him a break guys smh

Alnst pfp because these doomed twinks are ruining my life

Unfortunately, due to my work schedule this week, I won't be opening the Discord server until Sunday morning :')
          
          I don't want to open it and then not be there to mod as people are coming in, so it'll have to be Sunday. Sorry guys </3

Skizzleman is in EVIL btw