dattebanyeh
I hate my friends but I love them so much. But they're already all the friend group and I am nothing but a side friend. I could be replaced easily when it's just them. I am—even if there's 4 of us, they create a trip and leave me out Why am I so uninteresting? And boring? And mean? And stupid and not smart and ugly and not pretty and not skinny and undesirable and unattractive and so embarrassing and so I just wanna be one of the girls Please let me be one of you guys Please don't leave me out Not again Will I ever find a place of belonging? Where they'll be so excited to see me? Can I not be just another filler character and make this episode about me? I want to ruin myself I want to become beautiful beyond recognition I want to be one of those girls with a body sculpted from the gods I would give anything and everything to be skinny and gorgeous and desirable and attractive and I want to be looked at And I want to be talked about But in a positive way In a way that catches people's attention but because of my beauty Why can't I just Please