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i miss you i miss you holy jfdijfdj YOU NEED TO GET ON I MISS YOU 

I'm so worried about you are you still alive  :( cause I miss you so much

If you are reading this then I have already passed on to whatever is after this hell of a life and they've found my body and read my diaries and seen that I wanted this exact note to be posted after I permanently threw in the towel. I'm really sorry for those who believed that I could get better. If I thought that surviving hell was the best choice I would still be here now. To everyone who cares and have heard my story and been my friend, I'm truly sorry I left you. I hope you won't stay too mad at me. Please don't think that I didn't fight to get better because I did, but it just wasn't worth it anymore. I could handle the pain slowly killing me, but the moment I noticed that the pain was killing those around me too, I knew it was time to leave this world behind and save one more person heartache. I hope that you don't feel any pain anymore and that you continue living wonderful lives that eventually end with husbands(or wives) and children and even grandchildren. I really cannot say I'm sorry enough. I hope you all find it in your hearts to forgive me and to understand that this was absolutely the last resort. I am no longer a shame, a burden, or even a nuisance. I am finally free. Suicide was the only option left to free myself. I love all of you and your support! I hope one day we can meet in heaven and have a little party. I love you so very much! And I am deeply sorry that this had to happen. Thanks to whomever found me and read my diary and typed out my message for me so that way you would all know why I will never return to wattpad to write a story or reply to a message... Maybe you will take over my account so people won't miss me so much? I don't know.. It's your life... If it's Crystal who is typing this just know I love you so much and you were nothing but a joy in my life. I'm so sorry for all the things I've said to you... I love you sissy!!! 
          I love you all! And am sorry!
          Skyler xx

So just a quick update... For those who don't care skip over this...
          1) Privy (sequel to Panic) is out now.
          -chapters will be coming soon
          2) I have unfortunately relapsed...
          3) I will be going to rehab most likely friday...
          -that means probably no wattpad...
          -I will try and sneak it though
          4)Rehab is in america so I'm headed your way my American friends.
          -get excited i'll be there.
          5) please don't think I'm a freak
          -I'm trying to be mature and handle my problems (thought they are numerous)
          6) thanks for those who are praying and supporting me!
          -it means the world to me and i'm trying to get better for you guys.
          7) I love you guys!
          -s xx

Skye you are beautiful & talented. I love you lots n' lots. You can do it. You're strong. I'll be here for you every step of the way. Let me help you. We can get through this :) Love ya chicka!

Farewell to all... I hope you enjoyed it while it lasted... Now the journey'a over..

All right, so don't take this the wrong way, but honestly I haven't been writing a ton due to writer's block and also the fact that I've been feeling like 2 people are reading my stories... Like I start them and I have about 100 readers then I write the first chapter and bam they all disappear and I have 2 reads... It's not fun racking my brain trying to think of ideas for stories when I know that 2 people are reading... I just feel like you don't think I'm a good author or that my stories are dumb... So updating these stories and creating sequels for my stories just seems like a waste of time... I'm terribly sorry if you find this rude or if you think I'm annoying or "thirsty" but really I just don't feel like you are enjoying my stories so I just don't think that i should make them anymore..
          In fact after love letters I may just stop...
          Sorry if thats "rash" and "dumb" to you, but really when I see that a whopping 2 people are reading my stories it hurts.
          And I just refuse to put myself through that anymore.
          Thanks for understanding...
          -s xx :)

Do you have a sequel for panic?

I love your fanfics! xoxo

@Ksenija1D I will! Thanks for the lovely comment!