Hello,
I know I don't really deserve any of your time and attention after dropping off the face of the earth but i am here to explain myself and hope you can understand what i did and why i did it.
This is in no way an excuse for leaving all of you but i have struggled with my mental health for a long time, rapid cycles of mania and depression, my mind would tell me i didn't deserve the friendships i had or that it was easier to shut people out because interacting with others was too much work.
Being diagnosed with bipolar disorder has been a weight lifted off my chest, i had found out what i was experiencing had a name, it was validating to know that I was experiencing someone that others also went through, that i wasn't alone.
During my time away, i spend time in therapy and worked on myself. I am finally in a good space and hope to one day get to a great steps but i also know that this will take time.
I am eternally grateful for all of you, for you friendship,love and support.
Thank you,
Love Rory.
