Haru

I had my first kiss sjkskskkskskskkskskskksksk.⁠·⁠´⁠¯⁠`⁠(⁠>⁠▂⁠<⁠)⁠´⁠¯⁠`⁠·⁠.

A cute guy just asked me out sjskskkskksksksk

Hmm your girl just got over a situationship or should I say I got ghosted? I HATE MEN EVEN MORE NOW YAYYY. 

Hey there!
          Drop it later if you want, but give it a try first.
          It means the world to me ♡
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/351941836?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=Jeontids&wp_originator=0oIqDX4ApQ7m9MFKqfwn8AVm7VNYFQzeserHv2E6k8TrxsDhtS8rgCsOKjjNvutHKathJgxUm6HEUIUyjlTB4%2BG1jTasZ02TcLx%2F5kEdhJnOzRDQp25ECmFx1APCUGN6

Hiii, love! I'm good, it's been a while hehe How are you? :3

I'm back and I'll update the story soon yayyyy.( Idk if anyone wants to read anyways but still writing gives me peace so yesss I slayyy) 

Life updates: The guy I liked likes another girl. And idk what to feel tbh. But in the end we don't cry over spilled milk and men do we?

Hi my loves. Life's been so busy. Last year me was crying thinking if I will get into a college or not and I did. And now in a few days I will start my 2nd year. Yes things are much much better than last year. Lost a few of my loved ones but the strength that they gave me while they lived with me will always make me try to live this life. I thought getting into a college will solve all my problems but guess what it was only one of those important steps. I'm still growing as a person and still faces difficulties. But i remembered i should find time to do what gives me peace and I've not doing it for a while and I'm a fucking mess. I'm healing and that takes time. And yes ik now that life will always give us bad ewww situations but we will go through that. We're slayy bitches and we will. To all my love's whose going through tough times, pls hang on. It will pass. You're so strong and brave and you can do this. We got this queens/kings. 

When teachers used to ask to name 2 people you love the most in the world, all my friends used to say they loved both of their parents. But my answer were always different. The two people i loved the most was my mother and my grandfather. Not because i disliked by father or Anything,it was just that he was abroad for work and i lived with my grandparents.
          My granddad whom I called appu, he was everything to me. My first love, the man that i loved the most, the man that i trusted the most, the man who loved me more than anyone would ever love me in my life. It's been 7 days since he left me, i couldn't even tell him a proper goodbye. He has left me so many good memories that i can cherish for my entire life and the very bad ones that i wanna forget.The memories of us sneaking out to the kitchen to eat food while my grandmom is asleep when i visit him for the vacation, the memories of us playing run and catch eventhough he had really bad knee pain, he would hold his knee and then run with me, the memories of him getting me my fav chocolate and the memories of him wrapping my books for school. The memories of him ironing my dress,the memories of him leaving my parents home after visiting us while I'm asleep cz otherwise i wouldn't let him go, the memories of him kissing me on my forehead while I'm asleep,The memories of us playing hide and seek and him letting me win to the bad memories of him being diagnosed with cancer and him suffering from pain,and like that he did what he always does, he left me once and for all while i was asleep and the memory of my sister waking me up to tell me the news that i dread the most- that he passed away.
          
          And finally the memory of me kissing his ice cold face for the very last time while he was taken away for being cremated. 
          
          I can still feel his presence around me. I can still feel the love he has for me. I'll forever love him and miss him, for he'll always be the man i love the most. 

Why do i feel like everyone hates me? Idk but then there's this constant feeling that I'm good for nothing. It's just too hard sometimes. I think I'm just too sensitive or something. It's okay for friends to be rude to each other right? It's the love language ig? Maybe it's like that. I'm just overthinking