It's been a long time, but i feel that this is the only safe place I can rant without my friends knowing...
I don't know what happened, maybe it's going to my parents for the weekend, the 2 upcoming tests in school or the little argument i have with one of my "friends"...
I've been having so much fun yesterday and I actually feel good in my body and I'm working on myself! i've been 12 weeks clean for crying out loud!!!
But today, I just dropped, I couldn't articulate in neither german, english or italian classes like I usually can, I got through P.E only through will and I almost cried in math class today, TWICE.
I now lost my streak, I am clean for 15 minutes and I feel like I can't tell any of my friends. I feel like today I just disappionted everyone, I just want to stay in my room and let my daydreams consume me, I don't care if they're good or bad ones.
Everything's just moving to fast, and I can't cath up!
And I just have to keep pretending to care for every one, to always have a solution to other's problems and like everything is okay, but I'm tired, I'm tired, I'm tired, I'M TIRED!!!!!
I just want to disappear, and never come back..