@heraldedtech / "he has never been very physically affectionate, regardless of his company — but he wants valerian to *see* whatever he desires, however he needs." i am EATING that line oh my god
with the offering of both hands he perked up a bit , taking it as permission to explore as he pleased. with a light touch he traced over the pads of his fingers , the lines in his palm , to the ridges of his knuckles. a continuous process in the hopes of searing it into his memories. knowing the shape of someones hand may seem like a trivia thing , but to him , it was enlightening. before now he had not known viktor had calluses or that his hands were slender. two more features he could store away , think on when the other man came to mind. the thought alone caused him to let out a quiet laugh , elated by the new discoveries.
"you've shown me so much of the world already , even with how things are now. I believe you've given me much more than I thought possible just by being part of my world. an important part , truly." despite the words , he couldn't help the warm feeling that spread from the others declaration. he's never had someone express the want to give him anything , let alone something to that extent.
what followed made his hands movements stall , head tilting in a sign of thought. after a moment he gave a loose shrug , hands continuing in a different pattern. "I've tried ... but you assume correctly about the difficulty. I know the simple things. things like the length of my hair and my height. the smaller the feature gets , the harder it is to distinguish." it was as if his hands were numb to his own touch. distorting his own face into a blurred outline.