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Itsuki and Izzyan, both young people that learning about the hard-adult-life. For living in early 20-s, everything feels so hard. Its really hit deeply that make both of them feel like a rejection everywhere. 
          
          Izzyan, a smol girl that have a lot of things to-do but never accomplish just try her best to survive everyday with ADHD symptomps. Feel blue everyday just hers things for sure. However, the hope that burning in her heart slowly making her heavy step a bit lighten. Even being with a lof of friends, just making her feel "burden".
          
          However, being with a loud and noisy japanese guy that living abroad to study and working at Malaysia really hit differents. He totally changes the "gloomy worlds" to "adventure" one. 
          
          Meanwhile itsuki, who keep being silent and lonely missing his old one. He miss to laugh, to enjoy a small thing that he once did everyday. And, there, without he realize, he teach the young girl about the important things to celebrate and be grateful about the smol little things. There, a happiness come again. 
          
          
          

Hai awak di sana! Jemputlah singgah baca cerita saya jika berminat. Terima kasih
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/323059788?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=menieey
          
          Haiiii ingat sy takkk

Izzyan tersungkur jatuh lalu melutut ke tanah. Air mata yang terasa deras mengalir cuba dilap kasar. Nafasnya sudah mula terasa turun dan naik dengan begitu laju dan tidak teratur. 
          
          "Ya Allah... faghfirlii..." Itu sahaja yang dia mampu utarakan. 
          
          Segala dosa-dosa yang dibuat, dia mula terkenang. Sungguh, entah kali ke berapa dia jatuh lagi dalam dosa yang sama. Entah berapa banyak taubat yang dia perlukan buat memyental hatinya daripada titik-titik hitam dosa-dosanya. 
          
          Tapi, dia teringat. 
          
          "  "
          
          Lagi, dia menangis sambil bersujud. Azamnya, sungguh tak mahu diulang kesalahan yang sama. 

"Takkan awak tak tahu, bila terdetiknya nak 'pulang' tu maknanya Dia masih sayang kita."
          
          Dhuha kaku. "Huh? Maksud kau?"
          
          "Haih, macam ni.. Dhuha rasa... Kenapa mak-mak akan panggil pulang anak-anak dia bila waktu senja menjelma?"
          
          "Sebab.. Tak nak diorang balik lewat la kan?"
          
          "Kalau diorang balik lewat takut anything happen right? And the reason behind it all because of 'love'. Isnt it? Jadi, bila Dia detikkann awak untuk nak perbaiki diri, come on... You deserve untuk pulang."

Kan best kalau aku secantik diye kan? Everyone will look at me -- Izzyan
          
          Oh yeah? Then I wont look at you if you not pretty as 'you' -- Aniq Dhuha
          
          Tch, cliche one! 

Aku try to deny this feeling towards you but just, I dont want it to grow bigger inside my heart. What if you are nit the one at the end? Its me who will be the one feel the heartbreaking. 
          
          —Aniq Dhuha

What i got from my past experience la kan, if you dont ready for a relationship, then just dont start it. Start it how? If you know you not gonna make it into relationship or to make it serious thing, just dont start the chat between berlainan jantina. Maybe you just anggap for just untuk berkawan, but we didnt know at the end who will end up fall in love then. Niat, tak menghalalkan cara, dek. 
          
          Also here, the serious point is.. Kau tak ready lagi nak ada relay kan like the first sentence above. But the other side dah tersuka. Sometimes, nak lari sakit juga. Sakit dia, sakit kita. And here, we can see how important is 'ikhtilat' punya benefits though. How Islam ajar, berurusan hanya bila perlu then its gonna be one of the efforts of us to cegah that 'feeling' yg kita taknak. 
          
          We know, we not ready yet (or we already have someone). Then why, starting that small/simple conversation, sweetie? Its just at the end, hanya akan membebankan engkau. Fokus ah dulu what you want to do. Stop gunakan niat nak 'berkawan' dengan lain jantina if you chat pun setiap hari even not for 24 hours. Macam mana rasa suka tu tak hadir? (Also not all la.) 
          
          I know, not everyone akan setuju with this. But, for yg nak terima dan hadam, go ahead, may this can be salah satu hidayah for us utk more jaga ikhtilat. Its not that easy, but we can try. Letakkan gap yg sewajarnya. Jangan melting dulu takut cuma yg diberi hanya gula-gula manis yang didapatinya secara percuma bukan dengan seluruh air matanya. 

The letters:
          
          "Hey dear my baby girl. Euw. Haha. Wait, I'm being serious okay? Here, here. Listen. It's been 6 months since our married day, huh? Alhamdulillah, I really live you still, of course, not even gonna change. 
          
          Dear. 
          
          First of all, saya minta maaf Izz untuk semua salah saya selama ini. You know what? Since I met you, Aniq tak pernah seragu dan tak aman sebegini rasa terhadap orang lain. It's not your fault to mention heh. But, you know? It's kinda.. Oh my! I need to be more better to this person (oh it's you). You make me want to be more better and better, not only for you, for us but the important one is for Him, dear. 
          
          Setegar mana awak begitu bersungguh dalam menggapai dan mencari rahmat Allah, it's make me realize everyday; I can't lose this person. Someone who try to understand me all the time, giving her best and always keep reminding me of Allah. 
          
          Sayang. You're precious. Kalau saya ada kurang, saya minta maaf. Kalau saya tak sempurna, ya, saya mengaku saya teruk. But, I will try my best dear. For you, for us, for Him. 
          
          Izzyan, happy birthday, sayang!"

"That sleepy-eyes girl, who is she?"