ikarifucker

Y’all should check out my fic I started on 100%

ikarifucker

this message may be offensive
TW 
          
          
          
          
          it’s a weird feeling to watch ur self lose the progress u gained. i was doing sm better during the summer i could play pretend and forget that beneath it all was cold hard reality. i’m struggling to not throw up at the thought of eating i have a pit in my stomach and my parents. they’re back to their old ways, tho ig it never changed. everything is based on grades, grades, grades. they still see me as a fucking girl and it hurts so damn much. i’ve been out for around 8 months now and i get it takes time but i feel like more progress should’ve been made. i want to cut my skin open i want to tear my breasts off everything hurts i’m trying so hard not to go back to the way i was before but it’s rlly hard. i wish i could be there perfect little girl i wish i could be the extrovert with no insecurities the happy independent kid that never fucking existed. they don’t know me they know an illusion and it hurts. i’m so tired.