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                  “Shit— I—“
          	“What is it?”
          	“Fuck.”’ “You— you were my best friend, Jules. My best fucking friend.”
          	“You were mine.” First and only. That was how I always thought about Gavin too— my best friend first. Before anything else. He was the boy who I climbed trees with and snuck chocolate mints from the hostess stand. The boy I loved so simply. The boy I love. 
          	“So when you— I didn’t just lose the love of my life…”
          	“Gav—.”
          	“Shut up.” “You are. You know you are. Don’t even—“ He exhaled, jaw tight and tense, those brown eyes shining. “I lost my best friend. I lost everything all in one go. Eighteen fucking years. Gone. With five words.”
          	“I’m—”
          	“Don’t say sorry. Just don’t.” “It almost makes me wish—”
          	“What?”
          	“Nothing.”
          	“Gav, c’mon it’s me.”
          	“It almost makes me wish we’d never— if we’d just stayed…the way we were, and never…”
          	“Never…been us?”
          	“If we’d never crossed that line, and had been us before us…I don’t know…at least I’d still— we’d still…”
          	“So you— do you regret everything we— our whole…are you saying if we had stayed friends it would be better—.”
          	“Fuck— I don’t know, Jules. I never imagined my life without you in it— and I was so in love with you when we were kids I could barely see straight— but maybe if we stayed…platonic…all this pain, all this hurt would just be gone. And we’d be in each others life.”
          	“You wish we’d never dated?” “At all?” “That our whole relationship didn’t exist?” “What we mean to each other…”
          	“I just— I miss you, Jules.” “I really miss you.” “And sometimes I think that wanting you couldn’t possibly be as bad as losing you was.”
          	“I miss you too.”