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bored :/

/  i know this ain’t queen showing up  :0  <33

♱  ׁ    ✉️⠀     ..         i was JUST  thinking bout you !! ur account was gone :c

/ i love ya 

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/ ‎ ‎ ‎happy valentine's to all! <3

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note:   hi, souline here. i wanted to state a few things that have been festering in my mind which i have been meaning to share, but keep putting off.
             i started this account way back during lockdown, and created this character when i first saw my earliest friends (on here) doing so and along with the passage of time, after some observation, i conjured up a specific vision of how i wanted alaina's character to be. yet i feel like i haven't quite done justice to those ideas and imaginations, and rather done a poor job at implementing them. somewhere along the lines, in my poorer state of mind, the outline of alaina started to blur and my own self bled into her character, and i started to heavily project onto said character, plus everyone i interacted with until i completely forgot who the character was. this further along only lead to my  (1) growing disinterest, and (2) more and more dissatisfaction elicited by my replies, or the lack of them, thereof. me dissociating and treating alaina, (and roleplaying in general) as an escape to reality would have been fine, till it hadn't upset others.
             though this might seem random, unnecessary, or uncalled for, i did not want to use the same old excuse of having lost my creativity and being brain-dead 24/7 at all times. it's probably the only thing i say when i get on here, and this watered down reason that i gave seemed unfair for everyone involved. the new ideas i come across paired with my indecisive nature had me going back and forth with the character, quite a lot, to the point that i only interacted with a select one or two people. so for this, i want to apologise if i ever made you (or your character) feel neglected by any such actions of mine, it was never my intention to. having said that, it may take a whole lot of time for me to get back to roleplaying, if that does happen. i may linger around, out of character, but i cannot say more. with that, i end my rant. if you read the entirety of this, thank you.

/   THEME IS STUNNING

*shy fingers* i want to be active