me

A year babes a year<3

after n 18 month hiatus *cries*

U back?

Omg?

i know that shit apology was not enough and trust me i am not giving excuses. give me a second chance?

I AM SO FUCKING PROUD OF YOU GUYS

and alsoooooo guys you must be wondering why am i back here allof a sudden because i have started adopting my interests again stared to do the things i love  again and maybeeeeeeeeeeee someone's son is taking good care of me. so yaehhh i have found someone someone who is right and trust me he is i love him and he loves me

and like special mention to @larrystylinsonsep(ash) and sam and osh and harshiii and jay (forgot all the usernames) for like being there. i know i have not een a amazing friend but i will try?? thanks for like handeling my shit i love you guys like i know i do not show it often but i do trust me i really do.

this one is to my boo my baby and my wife @mcapriel. i can not express how sorry i am trust me i am babe. but i just could not bring myself to just do it. i saw all your messages and i love you like so damn fucking much. i know it would have hurted you so hard but trust i am really sorry and i will try to make up fior that. i will try to be more active here not as a formality but because i really fucking love you. i love you so much for not giving up. have tears in my eyes while im writing this but i want yiu to know when you are reading this just imagine me hugging you and like crushing your bones with all that i got in myself because fucking love you

imma be real straight forward with this he like started to force himself on me and also slapped me 4-5 times and i said nothing thought it was all "foreplay" boy was i stupid. then thing proceede further he put his hand in my underwear but i stopped him said i was not comfortable but he said that "i dont care" and then proceeded to finger me. i did not like it. did not want that to happen and then i had to stop him and told him had to go. we came into relation hsip after all of this and it went on till feb when i couldnt take it anymore. i had started to self harm and developed an eating disoreder all while i had to give my finals and had a wedding in my home and to be real honest i was fucking tired of everythi9ng and hated my self to bones cuz i let him treat me like shit just because i thought i could change him. silly me. while being with him i stopped talking to anyone else but him stooped using wattpad, tumbler and even instagram because he had my password and i did not like it when he used my accounts. i admit that i have been active on insta but trust me i do disappear time to time. and then one day i opened wattpad and saw all these messages from you and it overwhelmed me. i fucking started to hate my self even more because i was after someone who did not fucking love while ignoring all the people who loved me cared for me. i am deeply sorry to each and every single one of you. i will try and do better