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Happy New Year Kuya!!! :)

Merry CHRISTmas Kuya! So how’s the party up there? :) Don’t get drunk ok? Don’t get kick out there and come back here...this world isn’t as peaceful as where you are at now. Miss u brother :)

Your 40 days is inching closer. Surely everybody misses you a lot :( That’s for sure. Ate is counted. 

Today is gloomy. When you left it was gloomy for weeks. Ever since this kind of day reminds me of you. I miss your friendship so much :(

Dearest Kuya, rest in peace. I know You’re happy now to be with your beloved Mom and your Love. They’re probably as happy as you are now. Thank You for everything you’ve done and Thank You for a genuine and sincere friendship that you’ve shared with me. I won’t forget you and your kind heart. You have the purest heart I’ve known. You never say anything bad against anyone because you don’t want to hurt them. You’d rather get hurt than hurting others. You’re a very good person who’s willing to help anyone even those you barely knew, and without asking anything in return.  You’d give everything you had just because you wanted to make them happy. I haven’t met anyone who would do those unbelievable and crazy things just to help people in need, even putting your life at risk for so many times. All your help and love to people are priceless. Now... no more pain, no more sufferings, no more tears, no more hurt, no more tumor, no more cancer, no more screaming in tremendous pain in the middle of those heartbreaking nights... be happy now. I’ll surely miss you and you are treasured forever. I’ve told you these and I’m glad I had the chance to let you hear/read them. Be happy in heaven now, Kuya. -520-

Dear Love..
          Happy birthday.
          It supposed to be your 26th birthday today,
          But since you already there with Him
          There is nothing i could ask from Him for you anymore.
          I'm sorry for not being able to visit you today, but i promise to be there when i get the chance.
          Love,
          Just be patience, i'm gonna be with you soon.
          By the way, i'm happy now with my family and just so you to know that i have a beautiful sister now. 
          We're so far away but very closed to our heart.
          She's so kind.
          And you have another soon to be in laws too. 
          Daddy is going to adopt her soon, and guess what, she's the one i've been talking to you before.
          I'm doing my very best to help her fight for her life.
          I'm thinking of something, i think you are going to support me right?
          Hey Love,
          Talk to you later.
          I need to settle all my work before we meet.
          Happy birthday, bye my Love.
          
          -kimD-
          

          "Hey baby, when we are together doing things that we love.
          Every time you're near I feel like I’m in heaven feeling high
          I don’t want to let go, girl.
          I just need you to know, girl.
          
          I don’t wanna run away, baby, you’re the one I need tonight.
          No promises.
          Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms here tonight
          
          Hey baby, when we are together doing things that we love.
          Every time you're near I feel like I’m in heaven feeling high
          I don’t want to let go, girl.
          I just need you to know, girl.
          
          I don’t wanna run away, baby, you’re the one I need tonight.
          No promises.
          Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms.
          
          I don’t want to run away, I want to stay forever, through time and time.
          No promises
          
          I don’t wanna run away, I don’t wanna be alone.
          No promises.
          Baby, now I need to hold you tight, now and forever, my love.
          No promises
          
          I don’t wanna run away, baby, you’re the one I need tonight,
          No promises.
          Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms here tonight."
          
          I kept looking the card she left for me.
          She wrote me a beautiful heartbreaking song by Shayne Ward.
          
          I knew she's gone, but everything inside our house remain unchanged.
          Her clothes were still inside her wardrobe.
          Her poster sized photo of her remain untouch in my wall.
          The photo i sneakly took during the wedding i met her last time.
          She looks so beautiful in white.
          
          I accepted that she's safely now up there but it's only my heart is too stubborn to let her go.
          I'd promised her to take care of everythings. 
          I still working with Redbox, i still helping my dad.
          I still doing the same routine of mine.
          And i still living with my past..
          I know she's still everywhere in my life.
          
          Love,
          I will always love u no matter with or without u
          I will always miss u in all my life..
          Wait for me Love..
          
          -kimD-
          
          
          
          

I opened my eyes, saw my dad sitting next to me.
          He worriedly ask me what happened.
          I felt uneasy and stranged.
          Not even my dad, everyone was looking at me.
          Dad told me i scream Lynn's name out loud.
          
          So i was only dreaming?
          Suddenly i heard her dad voice..
          I quickly turn to him.
          A doctor came out from the theatre and talked to him.
          Why i felt so uneasy?
          I can see her dad fall to ground, i ran to him.
          
          Her brother's face suddenly changed.
          My dad came and give me a hugs, he rubs my back and slowly told me that she's gone.
          She lost her battle.
          My girl was unable to fight back.
          
          I was trembling hard, my breathe become hard.
          I felt my world had turned dark.
          I cried out loud.
          I shook my head, still unbelievable.
          I saw my girlfriend walking out through the door with a huge smile.
          She looked at me and waving as she'll go.
          My dream came true.
          She came to me while i felt asleep, saying her last goodbye.
          
          I felt pain in my chest..
          I can breathe properly.
          Til suddenly all the things went black.
          I passed out.
          
          -kimD-

I was struck by his word.
          He told me everything since he last saw me that night.
          He told me how she was been abused by her boyfriend who really jealous on me.
          
          I didn't noticed my tears start falling down.
          Poor my girlfriend, she's been hurt before and so do i.
          How i wish i can turn back time.
          
          Now my love was lying on the bed unconciously. 
          Her superior was found her collapse in the toilet with a bleeding nose.
          She and other collegue call the ambulance to bring her to the hospital.
          
          I saw a doctor coming out from her room. I
           went towards him and asked about my girlfriend's condition.
          It's been like my worlds turning down, i felt empty inside me.
          
          She never ever once telling me about her condition.
          How she's suffering with a blood clot..
          Dear god, why must u put this test on us?
          Why me?
          I burst into crying but i'm not losing hope.
          
          I went to see her dad, i make him sign the letter of consent to let my love undergo an operation.
          I've been waiting infront of the operation theatre.
          
          I refuse to eat, i don't want to do anything except for waiting.
          Suddenly i felt asleep.
          
          I heard she called me.
          She smile to me.
          I was so happy to see her awake but i felt stranged cause why she's wearing a white blouse.
          I felt uneasy with that.
          She hold my hands and we both walking through at the garden. 
          The place was so nice but a bit strange to me.
          
          Out of sudden the garden turns into a hallway.
          I see her crying but then she smiling to me.
          I was so confused. 
          Why we're here.
          She slowly let go of my hand.
          She smile, with a teary eyes, told me that she loves me so much.
          She's about to go.
          Wait! Where she'd go?
          I see her waving to me..
          No! Don't go.
          I scream her name. But she just went straight to the light.
          
          -kimD-

I felt weaken.
          I was so shocked til i dropped my phone to the ground.
          I felt like half of me was gone.
          Everyone was put their eyes on me.
          Suddenly my tears came out.
          
          My boss came to calm me.
          My body was shaken.
          I told her that was from the hospital.
          She's nodded and gave her permission for me to leave the meeting.
          
          Since i can't focus on anything, i asked my friend to drive me to the hospital.
          She had a crush on me before but ended being my bestfriend. 
          
          I saw her dad sitting on the chair with his brother.
          I still hesitate to go over, i still remember the punch.
          It hurts me. 
          I decided to wait here but suddenly i heard someone call my name.
          It was her father.
          I'm a bit worried thinking what will happen next but it shocked me when her dad hugs me.
          
          He ask for my forgiveness for all her wrongdoings before.
          He told me how he hates me when her daughter's boyfriend told him about me having an unnatural relationship with his daughter.
          His alter ego came and made him lost his mind.
          
          I cried and felt happy that time.
          I asked him what happen to my girlfriend cause i received a call from the hospital.
          He sighed and his face become sad.
          I'm so confused.
          
          -kimD-