m.

moment of silence for those ive lost:
          c, d, r, h, k, s, a, l, & y.

i'm ready to cut myself off from people.
          everyone.
          my 'friends,' irl & people i talk to here.
          it's exhausting & i'm never in a good mindset to deal w it

caught feelings for someone again.
          but, she has someone else now? i think?
          that's fine.
          it's fine.
          at least that person is there for her more than i am.

nothing is helping,,
          like i can't stop doing [that] & the relief i feel when i see the blood & feel the sting,,, 
          i'm just.
          it's unexplainable.

not @ the fact that ive lost over 3 friends this past year... we depressed

i love you baby boy.