hey, love :') part of me doesn't want to write this because it feels like I've written more excuse letters to you than chapters of tddup. I don't want to over-explain so I'll try to keep this short and to-the-point. I'm in my final semester of college and that takes up so much of my time and I have very little time for non-academic related activities.
The second thing is that my physical health hasn't been in the best condition this year... which has resulted in a drop in my emotional health as well. I'd come sit in front of my laptop with high spirits, then stare at where I've left off writing tddup and feel it all drain away. It's exhausting. And now, even when I want to write, I physically can't. I've been experiencing severe pain in my right arm (my dominant hand) and on a visit to the doc he mentioned some medical term which I didn't catch. Basically the bone at the back of my neck has compressed and is hitting a nerve - one that runs down the right side of my neck, shoulder and arm, which makes doing anything with that hand really hard. Idk what triggered it but it must be the hours I've been putting into studies and academic writing. And it doesn't help that I'm still doing them despite the pain which is probably why I'm not healing like I was supposed to have by now. I was feeling better yesterday only to sit down in front of my laptop today to pick up where I stopped writing the tddup chapter... just for the pain to act up again. I literally felt myself deflate with the disappointment :/