lounolan

Hi everyone. When I wrote my last message, I truly believed that 2017 would be better. But no. About a week into January I found out that my best friend, who was diagnosed with cancer and successfully treated last year, had relapsed. Metastasis. I’m pretty sure many of you have read ‘the fault in our stars’ and know to at least some extent what such a diagnosis entails. Almost fascinating how still you cling on to hope, even when it’s all gone. Even when they’re in a coma and there’s only days left. They passed about two months ago, and I wake up every day to a world that doesn’t make sense at all. 
          	
          	They were one of my oldest friends, smart and funny, energetic and vibrant. But above all kind and compassionate, always understanding, never judging. And also an inspiration for one of the characters in Ursa Minor.  I never told them. Thought I had all the time in the world, and when there suddenly was such little time left, it just didn’t seem important. I’d like to think they know now though. Somehow.
          	
          	I had every intention of returning here, but right now, it’s just not happening. I’ll take time-out until the fall, and then we’ll see. I’ll add on hiatus in the title so no one will have to go through the devastating pain of reading a 28 chapter wattpad story only to find out the author hasn’t updated in two years. (Sorry for being sarcastic.)
          	
          	To everyone who has sent me nice messages and taken the time to write a review, long or short, critical or encouraging, thank you! I wish I had the time and energy to answer you all, but I do see it and appreciate it! Take care.

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@lounolan Hello love, its been a while since I've imagined your beautiful voice in my mind. And I don't imagine a timbre or a lilt when I think of it; believe it or not, I hear the same poetic words you form when you write. And I don't hear it solely in your writing, I hear it in the short  comments/updates you post once a year or so. Although, in my experience, we don't always write the same way we speak, to me, what I hear in your writing is all you. 
          	  
          	  I meantion this because, a while back, I was re-reading your masterpiece and something clicked. For the first time I felt inspired by something, a feeling I haven't known since I was very young and writing poetry. Reading your story and comments, and hearing your voice in my head again and hearing and seeing your personality through your work, I was inspired to start writing my own story here. 
          	  
          	  I want to experience putting my personality out on Wattpad like you did, to be an inspiration to everyone because of something I created...
          	  
          	  Ok, I'm going to change subject really quickly. 
          	  
          	  Ok, so I have a belief. Imagine, if you will, that the body, mind and spirit are all separate but connected  entities. (Body can't funtion without the mind, mind can't function without the spirit). I was always told that our bodies are just vessels that our souls reside in for the time being, however, when our bodies return to the dust that it came from, our spirits do not die with it because, what animates our minds and bodies are pure energy. And I was always taught that energy doesn't die, but it transfers. Our energy, the energy of our friends and families don't go away, they transfer into another vessel to aninate it and live again. This is reincarnation. And the next generation being born could possibly be housing the spirit of a lost one. Can you image, for a second that that lost one is born into a new body, making an account on Wattpad, and reading Ursa Minor, and hearing your voice through your writing like I do, imagining you
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fishtowns

@lounolan Oh oh oh.... like a punch to the chest.. I'm so sorry, Lou.  I lost a good friend a few months ago as well, I know there is nothing on earth that can make something like this easier.  I wish that someone could take this pain from you but unfortunately the only one with the power to ease it is Father Time.  Don't worry about this story-- we will still love it just as much if you never continue it and will still be here if ever you decide to.
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NicoTheZombie18

@lounolan I'm so, so sorry to hear about your friend. I really am. I know she'd appreciate being part of such an amazing and successful story. And I'm sorry for being really bad at comforting. It's not one of my main skills. I'm sure your readers will understand. I do. Your story is something worth waiting for. 
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moonytaeil

I hope that you say something soon. Please let us know you're okay. Just something small saying you're here. I hope you are doing okay and I think about you and Allen and Matthew so often. Stay safe love. I'm sending you positive and loving thoughts 

Eurus_Eulo

Hello Lou. In these trying times, I hope you are doing well. Life hasnt been that kind to me these past few months and I am on the verge of collapsing. From returning to my old self. Please let me know you are there. That you still exist. It doesnt have to be long. A Hi or Hello would do. Please. You are one of the reasons why I keep fighting. I still look forward to the day that I will get to read your finished book. I sincerely hope to hear from you soon. And im sorry that i sound so needy.