˗ˏˋ holly ˎˊ˗

hi!! pls read my latest chapter to make me feel better <333 

hey, i hope you’re well! if you wanna catch up message me on here or insta :) x

yES THAT NEW USERNAME 

the message didn't come up on my notifs, but thank you so much xx 

update it's been almost 2 weeks since i started and 
          
          even tho it's triggering & painful 
          and ALL i want is some sugar, and burgers and pizza and absolutely every unhealthy food known to mans kind 
          
          i have slimmed down noticeably WOOHOOO gonna eat some crap salad now byeeee

@nightskyminter woah ilysm for this. i went through the exact same thing and i'm proud to say i'm vv happy with how i look. glad that i wasn't the only one who went through this. i'm so proud of you, Holly you've got this lass xxx 

a probably irrelevant, no good update but i'm just gonna say even so.
          
          so maybe a week and a bit ago, i tried on some school skirts. my sister was no problem, she's slim and fit and i envy her. me, i'm the bigger problem ( literally the bigger problem as i'm not exactly blessed with perfect curves and toned muscles and a flat stomach ) i tried on the skirt. it didn't fit. i cried and had a mental breakdown in front of everyone. in front of my family, the staff. everyone. so as i headed home i decided enough is enough. i'm NOT going to be the fat sister, the fat friend, the fat girls guys take pity on ( that has happened .)  
          
          so i woke up at 6 am, went for a 5k run and did some sprints. i struggled and took lots of breaks. but i pulled through. and then i did a hour workout. it hurt, my legs ached and i literally couldn't squat down to go to the loo, what a lovely picture(: !! then the next morning at 6am i went for a run. it was humid and hot as hell, I did it though. i did another workout. core strengthening & leg toning. 
          
          i have been doing this every day since. it's been hard. seeing my family at the dining table eating pizza, pasta, etc is VERY triggering. 
          
          but it's worth it, it's worth losing the weight. i'm motivated and determined. i will pull through, and eventually i will be able to step on the scales, eventually i will be able to wear a swimsuit, eventually i will be able to wear nicer clothes. 
          
          eventually 
          i won't be 
          known 
          as the fat girl.
          
          maybe i will keep you updated on my journey to self love ??? 
          
          

new chapter for skin will be out tonight woooimSoBadAtUpdatinghooo

i changed my layout ( idk if i like it yet i'm indecisive af lol ) but should i keep my username the same or change it to like @/lust-like or @lust-like or something idk .. hELP  

i'm so MOTIVATED to lose weight rn. i'm sick to death crying about my weight and feeling so upset about my body. i might do weight lost journey in my authors notes at the end of my chapters... maybe idk.