second choice

happy to be myself rn

no need to think about sch anymore ! yow i'm 18 year old finally

from the first class , i ask teacher to change me to the 4st class , idc if people think i'm stupid because change my class , people just don't know how hard being the first class and denying with killer subject ,, biology , chemistry , physic and addmath , it's suck for me to handle all of that killer subject  , i don't like art but i think it's okay to take art class , do you think so ?? i hope i can do that , i want to continue my study at abroad , but people said it's hard since i'm not science student no more , but who know ? maybe i can do it ...
          i hope so ...
          
          thankyou for read this ily

today is already monday , i lost my motivation to go to school ... i though new school will be so much better , i miss my old friends ... :))

i feel like i'm attention seeker when i try to talk about my feelings , so i choose wattpad ,
          wattpad is my only safe place since no one know me in real life , and who i am , where i lives
          and everything ...

i'll probably dissapoint my mom if she know that i need to drop class , she's so happy when the first time she know i'm science student , she dream i be a doctor but it's just a dream , i can't ever be that ,
          wish i can disappear so i don't need to dissapoint my mom anymore 

i'm so sick

if only k1ll ourself is not a sins , i maybe already do it a long time ago

i'm only 17 yold , but feel like i'm dying

sorry if i told you about my day and it bother you , actually i don't have friend anymore to share anything , so that's why i story it here , ~~
          
          yeah i had a friends , but i think they all tired with me