makusana

A lot has happened these last few months and I have been trying to be more focused on my friends!! I kinda gotten a spark back to start writing. Hopefully I’ll be able to AT LEAST edit something ya know? If not… I guess get back Into anime or drawing ya know? Ya only live once… “Put y’all seat bets on.”

makusana

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And sparks are rare ya know. You gotta take advantage lol. Even if it’s just, “hi” on the page. YA NEVER KNOW IF THE SHIT GON GROW SWEET CHEEKS!! LOLLOL. Ok thanks.
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makusana

A lot has happened these last few months and I have been trying to be more focused on my friends!! I kinda gotten a spark back to start writing. Hopefully I’ll be able to AT LEAST edit something ya know? If not… I guess get back Into anime or drawing ya know? Ya only live once… “Put y’all seat bets on.”

makusana

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And sparks are rare ya know. You gotta take advantage lol. Even if it’s just, “hi” on the page. YA NEVER KNOW IF THE SHIT GON GROW SWEET CHEEKS!! LOLLOL. Ok thanks.
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makusana

When I met new people I’m like, “Omg maybe we can be Osomatsu besties?” If they we’re into Osomatsu but then it sounds cultish. Am I that desperate to scream my love out for them? Bruh I’m cringing at my own self wtf. Ok thanks.

makusana

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Oh my god. I look though all of my draft stories. And yeah there’s still a shit ton to finish but at the same time…they are actually interesting concepts to me. Like… what is stoping me from completing them? I got all these au’s and new ideas but I’m just not acting upon them. Maybe it’s depression again cuz I can write mental illness fanfics pretty well. It’s just idk… A real bummer dude‍♀️. A real shame.

makusana

Like my writing is much better than the drafts are now. That’s how long it’s been… BUT I just can’t make myself do it. Idk I am wishing for my spark to come back. Cuz I love writing it just… shouldn’t be so hard to do. Smh. AND THESE DRAFTS BE LIKE 4,000 words 6k BRO THERES POTENTIAL!! I just gotta hope for the best. & make sure I can try my best. A real big smh. Ok thanks.
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makusana

Ok so I have like 1 friend that I recently realized that is into Osomatsu. Which is amazing. But what if I scare them off? LIKE MY PASSION FOR THEM IS STILL SO STRONG. So if I talk their head off I’m getting the rope huh? Maybe I’m just too insecure. Cuz I’ve kept my passion in for so many years. AND TO LET THAT OUT ON THEM- I…. I just feel bad. This is why I don’t have mutuals I STG. ITS ME- and imma keep it inside I’m sorry. Stay strong everyone!

makusana

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If I do meet someone that actually doesn’t die from all the shit I’ve been keeping inside. First of all I’m sorry, second of all wow wtf please marry me. Because there’s so much locked away. It’s like a loot boxes with shit prizes! NOT WORTH IT- but idk I’m trying my best bro. I’m sorry to all my brethren. Ik theres Someone out there with the same problem. Ur not alone bro. Keep ur head up king.
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makusana

I wanna connect with my Matsu brethren but I have no clue how to make mutuals? Friends I should say? Who are into Osomatsu. I’ve been fangirling for so long but have no hoes. LOL. Not like we would have hoes. BUT LIKE SERIOUSLY… people have a whole bunch of mutuals. Idk maybe I should just get out there more. But wtf should I say? “Hi, here’s my Matsu political affiliation!” Like idk. I’m just glad the fandom is still going. Love my Matsu babies. LOLOLOL. Ok thank you.