marie-holland97

Quick announcement but first I’d like to apologize for not updating lately as I mentioned on my last post I was not doing okay and I thought I’d be able to shake it off by now, I haven’t. I’m truly sorry from the deepest part of my heart, I am in actual tears as I write this because I haven’t been able to update and writing has always been an escape for me, a place that’s helped me cope with my darkest thoughts and feelings. It’s hard to sleep but it’s hard to get up every morning too. I want to write so badly but I’m also hurting deeply and I can’t shake it off and I hate it. Feeling so deeply stuck In a bitter, endless, and dark void. Please, I hope you understand that me not updating is not out of malicious intent or laziness, I just... I’m not okay right now. I hope you all understand my little sunflowers, I love you all so much for the unending support and love you’ve shown me constantly. Thank you from the bottom of my heart!
          	
          	Love
          	
          	-Marie 

LauWanYeng

@maria-winchester79 it is ok to not feel ok when it is truly not ok. Know that you are in my prayers and thoughts and this too shall pass, hugs..
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NengCataag

@maria-winchester79 take your time Marie, don't worry we could wait. just take care of yourself first and foremost.... jiayou!!!! don't pressure yourself... ❤❤❤
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veryfarfromusual

Take all the time that you need to heall and feel good author. Dont be pressured! We’re here ❤️@maria-winchester79
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linchijo

I'm happy n glad that u managed to find strength to break through n overcome all the obstacles that u hv been thru in your darkest time❤️
          Hope that love n positive thinking wil stay w u to help u to find joy n peace❤️
          It wil be the new beginning of new Marie....the happy, brave n all so lovely woman!!❤️❤️

linchijo

My heart goes to u....dear!!❤️Life in this world is already so tough...so pls don't make it more harder for yourself. Don't let your bad negatives thoughts clouded in your mind too long that it rob away your peace, joy n freedom. 
          
          Jus tink of happy moments, friends n family who love you dearly n things that make u smile. Don't let those darkest thoughts anchor u sink down deep into the sea that u might not be able to see the bright light in the sky if u continue so.
          
          Whatever u r goin thru....u r not alone coz u stil hv God w u even though u can't see Him. But His presence is always w u thru gd or bad times. He is for u n with u.  There r many trials n tests in our lifetime that v hv to go thru it!!
          
           Take care n God blessed you!! Sending u a my virtual hugs n kisses.

marie-holland97

Quick announcement but first I’d like to apologize for not updating lately as I mentioned on my last post I was not doing okay and I thought I’d be able to shake it off by now, I haven’t. I’m truly sorry from the deepest part of my heart, I am in actual tears as I write this because I haven’t been able to update and writing has always been an escape for me, a place that’s helped me cope with my darkest thoughts and feelings. It’s hard to sleep but it’s hard to get up every morning too. I want to write so badly but I’m also hurting deeply and I can’t shake it off and I hate it. Feeling so deeply stuck In a bitter, endless, and dark void. Please, I hope you understand that me not updating is not out of malicious intent or laziness, I just... I’m not okay right now. I hope you all understand my little sunflowers, I love you all so much for the unending support and love you’ve shown me constantly. Thank you from the bottom of my heart!
          
          Love
          
          -Marie 

LauWanYeng

@maria-winchester79 it is ok to not feel ok when it is truly not ok. Know that you are in my prayers and thoughts and this too shall pass, hugs..
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NengCataag

@maria-winchester79 take your time Marie, don't worry we could wait. just take care of yourself first and foremost.... jiayou!!!! don't pressure yourself... ❤❤❤
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veryfarfromusual

Take all the time that you need to heall and feel good author. Dont be pressured! We’re here ❤️@maria-winchester79
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linchijo

Hey....! Don't worry...jus take your time. U can always update us whenever u r feeling better n satisfy w your work, ya!! 
          
          Jus take things easy....bad days wil pop up once awhile is jus part of puzzle of life.
          
          Hope u hv a blessed wkend ahead!!☺️

linchijo

Sometimes v get carried away w our daily life....so is ok to feel wat u r feeling now. After all, v r jus bein human v hv our moment of feeling down for whatever reasons. 
            Jus tink positive n remind yourself that any bad day wil come to an end. V r not perfect jus treat it as a learning process in life.  
            Take care....dear!!
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marie-holland97

@linchijo it is really  okay to have a bad day and it’s taken me forever to realize that and sometimes I still forget but thank you for being so kind ♥️
            Have a good weekend!
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marie-holland97

Today is not a good day for me. As I’m struggling and trying to cope with my feelings and emotions... it’s not something I’m very open to sharing with other than with my sister who always understands where I’m coming from and offers sound advice. The reason I’m letting you know is because I will not be able to update puzzle pieces this week and it truly breaks my heart not to, I have written the next couple of chapters but I’m not satisfied with the outcome and if it’s not a page turner or I’m not excited to re read my chapters before I even post even when I know what’s going to happen, than I don’t feel justice to post and update with shitty writing. I just can’t. I hope and pray that you understand me my little sunflowers.. if I feel better I’ll try to update but if I can’t than I won’t until the following week either Tuesday-Thursday which is when I usually update anyways. 
          
          Love
          
          -Marie 

marie-holland97

Just want to say that you guys are so amazing! Thank you for the support and kind words. It truly makes me happy to be a part of such an understanding and kind community. You guys are definitely such amazing friends! A lot of personal things I’m dealing with and going through but definitely thankful to have you guys!!! @sushmitasherchan @lauwanyeng 
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LauWanYeng

@maria-winchester79 just wanna cheer for you! Hope that you will be better soon and hugs!
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SushmitaSherchan

Hey what wrong babes?? I really hope n pray everything is good...if not then it will be ...just take your time...I just want to tell you that I really love your work. No pressure...just keep up your good work...nobody is goona judge you...coz we are great to you guys for letting n giving us chance to read such a beautiful work of your..not anybody can write...example me...I love to read n  I have kind of read n try to read all  the diy fanfic or related...coz I love them so much ..I miss them so much ...you guys help me go through the frustration...I wait for all the updates...kind of weird coz I re-read it many times...heheh...so god bless you babes..thank for your hard word..dedication...time..for this story!! Hope you will feel better soon...hope you will find new motivation to continue your work..please remember we are always there to support you n your work...thanks for sharing your thought n calling us sisters.. we may not know  eachother personally but we all are dyshen shippers n  I will always there to read your story.....jiayou!! lastly ..I will be eagerly waiting for your update...‍♀️
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threeletterslife

ohmygod that was the message of the century!!!! thank you SO SO MUCH for taking time to finish reading illegirl in ONE day (i saw all the notifs gurl) and even caring to write such a kind message for me! 
          i’m so glad that something i wrote can give you motivation, and i’m ever gladder that we’re lowkey soul sisters XD
          DAMN I LOVE BEING CALLED A BADASS
          IRL IM BASICALLY A GOODY TWO SHOES THO SO IDEK WHAT I AM ANYMORE NDNCJS
          anyways, i’m rambling now (as my characters often do) have a great day/afternoon/night ❤️ you’ve completely made my day (: 

marie-holland97

Soul sisters * damn auto correct lol
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marie-holland97

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Haha girl yes I did that. I love a good read that I can’t put down no matter how hard I try! I was sitting at work like “if I’m being work productive all while I read than hell yes, #winning” lol ... it’s so hard for me to read something I truly enjoy like I’ll read something because I started it so might as well a lot of the times but you, your writing it’s so fucking awesome, I kept reading it like woah I love how descriptive she is, it was so easy to imagine everything like the scenarios in my head as I read it was fucking perfect for real. 
            Should sisters, yay ♥️ 
            In some aspect I could tell/relate because I feel like our characters that we write always come from a part of “us” and I did read you mentioning that school is super important to you which btw that’s fucking awesome and I know how hard it can be to push yourself to do your best, shit is stressful. Haha I’m rambling too omg ‍♀️ 
            Have an amazing day too, thank you for taking the time to comment and reply, so glad to hear I made your day! 
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marie-holland97

Guys I’ve had such a rough weekend I am updating one chapter of the Professor hopefully by tonight and at least one chappie for Puzzle pieces. I’ve been so swamped. I had a family member who passed away so I wanted to do a little more writing I’ve just not had the time but I promise you , I will get you your two chappies of Puzzle pieces by this week even if I only upload one no later than tomorrow. Just wanted to keep you guys updated, forever thanks for going along this ride with me my little sunflowers ♥️
          
          Love,
          
          -Marie