I feel so distant....from the world. From myself. I almost don't feel real. Everything's fine. But it's not. As if my soul doesn't exists in my body. World seems dull and frantic. It's been over a month I haven't journaled.... I'm scared....scared of my own thoughts.
It feels like a cloud of raven is trying to lure me into a pit hole of darkness; like drowing in a scary blue ocean; the sheer void in my head disturbs me.
I just can't feel anything anymore. As if my senses are numb.
I get irritated easily, forget things more than usual, zone out more, procrastinate to the point that I don't even care to complete my task. I'm brutally self sabotaging myself.
And sometimes it's even more worse. A pang of guilt crosses my heart, as the loneliness engulfs my surroundings....it feels my heart is missing someone.... someone very dear to me...but I don't know who.
I guess my senses are broken these days.....
