as a kid, i always was excited to get older. i thought itd be so cool to be able to drive, to spend money on my own, to roam around a store, to eat whatever i want, to have my own pets, to have my own place. but now i am getting older. i dont want to, im scared to leave my mom, my friends, the comfort of not having to pay bills. i get eveythirg handed to me. im scared of being alone. i wish i was 8, 10, even 12. even if i was annoying as a kid, i was just figuring things out.