hey gays,
i'm not in the best mind set right now and i promise that i'll still post the book. Some sad and terrible things has happened the past months that has really hurt me. To make up for that, here's a little sneak peak of "Lonely Nights Without You":
'Oh sweet, sweet Evan, look what you've done. Destroyed everything. You should be ashamed of yourself. Ruined everything. Well you always ruin things, am I not right, young man. I hope you continue to hate yourself because everyone already hates you, Evan. Just give up Evan, if you just give up now, you won't feel the pain anymore' the voice in my head says to me.
I'm upset, I'm broken, nothing can fix me. I'm useless, my girlfriend hates me, what else am I left to do? What is my purpose, anyone?! Why do I even care about myself ? The world may never know.
Laying in my bed, I start to think. It's 3:50 A.M. and school starts at 7:45, great. Just perfect. These thoughts just keep getting to me. I just want a normal life, but I know that I won't. People say that it'll get better, it won't.