nikitaonhiatus

Hi everyone.
          	
          	Iʼve recieved some kind messages claiming that I shouldnʼt feel guilty as I am the “victim” in all this. I want to make it clear that I am definitely in the wrong and itʼs okay to admit that and point it out.
          	
          	I willingly allowed this story to continue existing in my profile. I willingly lied and pretended it was my own work. I willingly allowed you all to assume that it was my story. I willingly allowed you all to praise “my” work. I was selfish and willingly accepted compliments and votes which I didnʼt deserve. I willingly kept this to myself for four years. In short, I basically stole and plagiarised someone elseʼs hard work and acted like it wasnʼt despicable. I knew what I was doing was wrong and I kept doing it irregardless.
          	
          	Regardless of how this all started and my reasons for lying, I still made wrong and unwise decisions. Emphasis on wrong. I donʼt want anyone to paint me with a victim brush because I definitely am not one. I would once again like to extend my sincerest apologies to @FallOut5 for all the frustration and hurt this has caused her.
          	
          	I have deleted all my other works as I realise this discredits them as well. I am willing to delete my entire account as I understand it will be difficult for you all to ever trust that anything that comes after this is an original work.

FallOut5

@-noctivagus- Okay awesome! I think I’m just worried I’m blowing this out of proportion but I’m glad the general consensus is I’m not. Thanks for reading :)
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FallOut5

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@FallOut5 She fucked up and like everyone has the right to express that however they want. At this point it’s out of my hands. 
          	  
          	  Nikita thank you for apologizing. I hope no one harasses you, I really do. I also understand why people are annoyed and like they have every right to express how annoyed they are. I’m definitely upset this went on for four years. It was too long. I know you know that. I hope you can learn and grow from this. I’m honestly frustrated and irritated but I wanna eventually forgive you. Life is too short. I’m glad I have credit now because I did work really hard on my story. 
          	  
          	  I also don’t think you needed to delete all your other works but I’m going to leave that up to you.
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FallOut5

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@FallOut5 As much as this wasn’t a story I was making money off of, it was something I wrote and put a lot of work into. I finished it my freshman year of college and I put a lot of my own feelings into it. It was pretty exciting to see so many people did resonate with it even if they did think someone else wrote it. 
          	  
          	  Thanks to Nikita for apologizing. I understand a lot of people are mad on my behalf and that’s so kind of y’all.
          	  
          	  I can understand being insecure with one’s own writing and wanting to write like someone else. I think Nikita is a great writer all on her own and doesn’t need someone else’s work. But it’s also unfortunately common for a lot of people to dehumanize others online which makes it all too easy to repost a story thinking the real author will never see it. Or to not even consider the real author because they don’t seem real to you. 
          	  
          	  It’s also easy to get caught in a lie and panic and take the easy way out which is to just continue lying and covering it up. Nikita made the wrong decision and I’m hurt and I’m frustrated it had to come to all this drama. I can’t speak for her intent but she does claim it wasn’t malicious. I still haven’t worked out how I feel about that but I wanna try and take her at face value.
          	  
          	  But yeah, I would never tell anyone to not be upset about this or feel lied to either. I guess all I can ask is if you are upset try and communicate to Nikita in as kind a way as possible. I keep bouncing back and forth between if I wanted to keep this part because there is a huge part of me that’s upset and wants to say fuck off.
          	  
          	  But like I do want to try and give second chances. Maybe that’s stupid but idk. I’m not making excuses for her and I’m beyond frustrated that all this happened.
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Ilovesocks__24

Might be beating a dead horse. But I’m petty and idc. But after seeing what happened with @FallOut5, I’m in:
          
          Nikita also stole my fic too. 
          
          I wrote a fanfic on ao3 called “Can’t Take the Heat?” Worked really hard on it and was really proud of it. And tbh a lot of people like it. Then I found on through some comments that it had been reposted here with a new name of “the carbonara effect” and that the author had changed all the names of all the characters and was taking credit for it. 
          
          To say I was upset was an understatement.  Admittedly I may have posted some colorful language on Nikita’s wall, but I was angry that all my hard work had been stolen. 
          
          She blocked me and deleted the work, but it was clear that it was a very popular fic, so she continued to take credit for it and made up all these BS excuses on why she had taken it down, even though I had linked the original fic in comments. She deleted everything indicating that she had stolen my work. 
          
          But people kept asking where it went, and eventually she reposted it again, with some nonsense about how it was publicly available work and was open to the public. 
          
          This time I made a new account and privately messaged her, first apologizing for the way I handled things initially but also asking her to take my work down. 
          
          She blocked that account too, but she ended up taking “Can’t Take the Heat” down again, but what’s really frustrating is that there was a bunch of works taken from wattpad and posted to NovelHD, and my fic was one of them. But it was the plagiarized version that was posted.  
          
          Even while actively talking about how bad and damaging plagiarism was, Nikita still lied about how my fic was hers and how “frustrated” she was that “her” fic had been “stolen.” 
          
          I know I’m late to the party. I don’t know if anyone will see this. But If it happened to me and it happened to @FallOut5, I seriously doubt any of Nikita’s works are actually hers. 
          
          And tbh if @FallOut5 gets an apology, then I want one too.

SlimToffee

@Ilovesocks__24 after destroying her presence on here? What are you waiting for a comeback for? Not saying your claim isn't true, but I think it's really weird that you're waiting for her to share anything on WP again.
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infernalbiitch

@Ilovesocks__24 you're welcome! but i've no real clue if nikita IS going to come around and maybe have a comeback.
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Ilovesocks__24

@infernalbiitch lol hey thanks for your support. Yeah this situation is crazy. 
            
            You’re her friend though, yeah? You still in contact with her? Any chance we’ll see her back on here soon?
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nikitaonhiatus

Hi everyone.
          
          Iʼve recieved some kind messages claiming that I shouldnʼt feel guilty as I am the “victim” in all this. I want to make it clear that I am definitely in the wrong and itʼs okay to admit that and point it out.
          
          I willingly allowed this story to continue existing in my profile. I willingly lied and pretended it was my own work. I willingly allowed you all to assume that it was my story. I willingly allowed you all to praise “my” work. I was selfish and willingly accepted compliments and votes which I didnʼt deserve. I willingly kept this to myself for four years. In short, I basically stole and plagiarised someone elseʼs hard work and acted like it wasnʼt despicable. I knew what I was doing was wrong and I kept doing it irregardless.
          
          Regardless of how this all started and my reasons for lying, I still made wrong and unwise decisions. Emphasis on wrong. I donʼt want anyone to paint me with a victim brush because I definitely am not one. I would once again like to extend my sincerest apologies to @FallOut5 for all the frustration and hurt this has caused her.
          
          I have deleted all my other works as I realise this discredits them as well. I am willing to delete my entire account as I understand it will be difficult for you all to ever trust that anything that comes after this is an original work.

FallOut5

@-noctivagus- Okay awesome! I think I’m just worried I’m blowing this out of proportion but I’m glad the general consensus is I’m not. Thanks for reading :)
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FallOut5

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@FallOut5 She fucked up and like everyone has the right to express that however they want. At this point it’s out of my hands. 
            
            Nikita thank you for apologizing. I hope no one harasses you, I really do. I also understand why people are annoyed and like they have every right to express how annoyed they are. I’m definitely upset this went on for four years. It was too long. I know you know that. I hope you can learn and grow from this. I’m honestly frustrated and irritated but I wanna eventually forgive you. Life is too short. I’m glad I have credit now because I did work really hard on my story. 
            
            I also don’t think you needed to delete all your other works but I’m going to leave that up to you.
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FallOut5

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@FallOut5 As much as this wasn’t a story I was making money off of, it was something I wrote and put a lot of work into. I finished it my freshman year of college and I put a lot of my own feelings into it. It was pretty exciting to see so many people did resonate with it even if they did think someone else wrote it. 
            
            Thanks to Nikita for apologizing. I understand a lot of people are mad on my behalf and that’s so kind of y’all.
            
            I can understand being insecure with one’s own writing and wanting to write like someone else. I think Nikita is a great writer all on her own and doesn’t need someone else’s work. But it’s also unfortunately common for a lot of people to dehumanize others online which makes it all too easy to repost a story thinking the real author will never see it. Or to not even consider the real author because they don’t seem real to you. 
            
            It’s also easy to get caught in a lie and panic and take the easy way out which is to just continue lying and covering it up. Nikita made the wrong decision and I’m hurt and I’m frustrated it had to come to all this drama. I can’t speak for her intent but she does claim it wasn’t malicious. I still haven’t worked out how I feel about that but I wanna try and take her at face value.
            
            But yeah, I would never tell anyone to not be upset about this or feel lied to either. I guess all I can ask is if you are upset try and communicate to Nikita in as kind a way as possible. I keep bouncing back and forth between if I wanted to keep this part because there is a huge part of me that’s upset and wants to say fuck off.
            
            But like I do want to try and give second chances. Maybe that’s stupid but idk. I’m not making excuses for her and I’m beyond frustrated that all this happened.
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nikitaonhiatus

Hi everyone.
          
          Iʼm sure some of you have seen messages from @FallOut5 claiming that “The Boy Who Ran Away” was originally her Teen Wolf fanfiction “I Am Afraid of the Water” which she posted on archiveofourown.org under her account Sonder535. Before yʼall claim that she is a liar or a troll, I want to make it clear that she is telling the truth.
          
          I deleted her previous message that I stole her stories because I wanted to explain and clear up the entire situation with her first out of respect before I came clean. I definitely wasn't trying to avoid the situation. At the very beginning of 2018, if not late-2017 I was suddenly unable to access my Wattpad account even though I never forgot my password or username. I emailed Wattpad about the issue but they didnʼt fix the issue immediately. One day a story showed up on my Wattpad profile that I obviously hadnʼt written as I didnʼt even have access to my account at the time. I asked a close friend to report the story and post that my account was definitely hacked. But this hacker kept deleting her messages and the story was never taken down. I didnʼt want my friend to report my entire account as I had 4 stories up at the time and I couldnʼt imagine starting over and trying to remember everything word for word. When Wattpad managed to fix the issue months later, the story was complete and had many readers. I had no idea what to do or how to explain the situation 'cause it sounded frankly unbelievable. I also didn't want anyone to think that I willingly stole it and chickened out before I could get busted.

transiented

@infernalbiitch I'm still puzzled by your comments. I do believe that the user was valid in their criticism as Nikita did not apologize until the author addressed what she did (more than once apparently, according to the author's own comments). In that case, it is comparable to youtuber apologies in that regard. However, I am happy that Nikita did come around to apologize properly and hope we can all move forward. At the end of the day, the author is the victim in all of this and it's well past time for the rest of us to move on, as I said before.
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infernalbiitch

@ramblingrumi absolutely valid. can't exactly argue. but like i find it wild with how they concluded to laura lee though, i don't know maybe it feels... rough? 
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ramblingrumi

@infernalbiitch again, don't want to prolong this as everything has been sorted out, at least publicly. but you must understand that as nikita's friend you have access to information we may not. because, before she posted a new apology, the whole laura lee, apologised because of reputation was exactly what it seemed nikita was doing. you saying "it's been eating her up" isn't something we can see, as she only apologised here after getting called out. this user was just critiquing nikita's apology, which as we can see nikita understood and made a new, much better one. there's really nothing you need to defend here. 
            
            peace and love <33 
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