Blue

"Go out for coffee four times a week by yourself
Always bring your notebook, never stop writing
Leave little comics and thank you notes with your tip
Watch them smile as you get in your car
Always talk down on yourself whenever possible,  
"My life is shit because i deserve it, right?"
You must have done something real bad
Its nearly impossible for you to cry now
Avoid your friends for weeks even though they're the only sense of consistency you have left in your life,
If they really wanted to see you they'd come, 
But they won't 
Who cares?
Allow yourself to lose interest in the things you love
Watch as you begin to take a backseat to the world around you, 
Don't fight it!
Become a secondary character in your own motion picture
But most importantly drown every single one of your feelings in old stolen rum, 
Learn to love the taste of it dripping down your throat
Find comfort in the warmth coming from your stomach, 
You're drinking bottled love now...
You don't need other people to drive away your loneliness
You just needed to find a way to talk to it"