Aidai Oscar

When people ask me to tell about myself, I literally fall into a stupor. I start twaddling like - my name is... I'm from... I like books, movies, and wine. But, does it say anything about ME? If I say I read books- it describes me as a nerd, always carrying a book with me, but it's not true. Yes, I read.  Just because, sometimes I want to run away from the problems and people who surround me. Sometimes I just wish to know nobody, forget everyone and just like an innocent kid, think that all people are good and there's no NON- reciprocity or evil.
How should I start with? Perhaps by saying my name! I'm Aidai, I came to Korea when I was 18, from a very far, unknown country called Kyrgyzstan. 
Once, sitting outside of a coffee shop, thinking about random stuff, I saw a girl, she was decently dressed, with a very common appearance, dark sad eyes, plump lips, and thin hands. She was carrying a heavy bag and her phone. Somehow, I saw myself in her. As I also dress decently with features similar to hers. Pretty healthy skin and dark brown eyes. I'm not popular, rather something in the middle and I like it. This is how I see myself.    Now let's see how I look in people's eyes? Probably, always with a ponytail, no makeup and barely visible smile aaaand it seems like my post "Shortly about myself..." is getting longer. It's a little melancholic and depressive I would say, so is my mood at the moment. So is my mood...