As I tend to write long chapters, it's taking forever to complete chapters. I'm 4k words in (new ch of NUMB) and it's not even halfway. I also am writing just in evenings. Sike! Weekend will now mean more writing time, hopefully.
Apart from that, I wanted to say something. I started my therapy sessions from today. Since the time I moved out, I'm having this constant feeling of going back in time. The time of lockdown. When all I used to do was read and write my fanfics, eat, sleep and repeat. I'm doing literally that since lockdown.
Yes, I started with creating malec merch, a side hustle with graphic designing, trying and failing to be a blogger (last year, this time I'm more focused to make it as a writer and blogger) but I had malec in my mind 24X7 (I still do). I just want to go back in that bubble and never come back.
But I know that I have to live, earn and make my life, because at some point, it WILL fade, it's just not right now. It's actually killing me, this feeling. I told that to my therapist today and yes, it's like, I really need to work on myself. I have sessions planned, but the thing is, I want to say it here. To know how y'all feel. This had been my sanctuary for years now. While I love you all so much, I know it's unhealthy. I do love my malec though. I just want to have a chat with y'all.
Piadreamer ❤️