I turned 18 few days back and tbh life feels so different now, every emotion and thought omg everything is so changed. Why don't people talk about the changes you face as you grow up? but hey dw I'm here to talk about (wattpad is the best place to yap) starting with my childhood, I used to be a shy kid like that one kid who sits in the corner of the classroom, I used to fight for my life while raising my hand up for saying "present ma'am" this remained till class 5th. Then on a random day my english teacher asked us to write an essay on the topic MY BESTFRIEND, bestfriend??? what's that?? I never had any!? infact I never had any one friend also. Reality was standing right behind me.
The girl who secured 1st position in english , couldn't complete a 100 word essay. Shameful right? since then I made a decision that I'll interact now idc about my shy ass but I will talk. Then in class 6th I made so many friends and when you're a friend to all, you actually stand out alone in the crowd yes that's the reality. I made friends, experienced failed friendships too. So inshort I because an extrovert person but since I turned 17 I was kind of isolating from people , then I got my heartbroken omg this heartbreak shattered me inside out. I moved to a new city met new people, we became close but backstabbers won't leave you right? also special mention I made two friends, for them I'll gladly take a bullet. Now I'm totally an introvert person like I'm myself w my bestfs but w other people dude I zone out during a convo, ik this a part of becoming mature but am I losing myself? no, ig because I find comfort in being myself only. As I age my self doubts are growing too. I always feel like I'm never enough for my friends, they really deserve a better friend than me, No matter how much and what I do for them it's never enough, I hate these types of thoughts crossing my mind.
