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I have an older sister. Throughout my childhood our relationship hadn't been the most...desirable? Anyway, today we've spent a magical evening together acting as sibling should and it brought me tears of joy instead of the tears of sadness I had shed just days before. I realized that growing up we just clashed - we weren't compatible in a sense. But now we've both matured and we...we're better now and I fucking love it. I love being able to openly share our affection towards each other instead of her saying harsh words and me cowering. The last two years have been a better, mended version of our relationship and I only just realized. I also realized that I want to remember our larger bonding events with music. We had one of these events only a few hours ago.
August 18, 2020 (Trees - Twenty One Pilots): After a stop at Kwik Trip for candy and drinks we took a drive around the lake. I felt alive. I felt loved. I felt it was where I belonged.
January 7, 2021 (Fashionably Late - Falling In Reverse): As we went off she asked for a song. Per my request she played the song listed above. It was the first of many played that night and each and every one of them sparked joy in me. It made me feel comfortable and at peace. It made the night and experience all the more enjoyable - and I'm glad she was the one with me.
As I type this I have Fashionably Late on repeat so I can continue to enjoy the memory we've made tonight and dream about the many more I wish to spend with her. I love her.