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thank you all so much for the lovely messages, i’m having a better day today but yk, it’s just one day at a time at this point xx

Hi guys, I think I should make this announcement just so people are aware. Yes, I did try to take my own life two nights ago. I won't go into specifics because thats too triggering, but I am alive and well (physically). I'm in hospital currently whilst I strengthen up and then I'm going to be moved to a facility for people who struggle with eating disorders because I have reached a dangerous point. I have lost over 30kg. I'm hoping for a speedy recovery because honestly idk how I'll get through a slow recovery. Ive been using Marvel movies and the show Agatha All Along as a coping mechanism and it's probably one of the only things that actually brings me joy nowadays. Also, word of advice, dont unblock and follow your exes on social media. I look like a creep now. Okay, goodnight, hope everyone had a fantastic day!!

hey. I love you. yeah you. you have so many reasons to stay on this earth. my beautiful face is one of those reasons. dont give up. you've got this. if unblocking your ex is what your impulses tell you to do then thats okay. just dont hurt yourself

wait im obsessed
          
          "If I could i would show you how I'm sorry
          How I long to clean the slate
          But it's far too late if I ran to you
          If I begged you to forgive me
          We might share a different fate
          But it's far too late
          Far too late to sing a love song
          You're in someone else's arms"

also not me saying I wasn't using this account anymore and then coming back like 2 weeks later. gotta love those depression swings

chat is it worth it?

“A long time ago, I loved someone. And I had to do something I did not wanna do, even though it was my job. And it hurt them. She is my scar.”

hi, im no longer going to be using this account for personal reasons
          I will not delete it so people can still read my published books but I will not be updating those books or using this account any longer
          thank you for understanding and for those of you that have supported my work over the years, I love you <3

I still love you, I promise
          nothing happened in the way I wanted
          every corner of this house is haunted
          and I know you said that we're not talking
          but I miss you, im sorry

rest in peace Liam Payne </3