مہک

are we writing a novel
          or just a chapter? 
          are we meant to be
          a sweet disaster?
          is it all in my head
          or are you an actor? 
          are you my “once upon a time”
          or my happily ever after? 

of all the things i’m not very good at, 
          living in the real world is perhaps the most outstanding. 
          

To be honest, I never stopped crying to the stars. I just stopped telling people about it. I guess I just realized how no one's really ever there to listen. Some people will say they would, and they will—but only up to a certain point. Then they expect you to heal. To just charge it to experience and move on. I don't blame them. The world's already so busy as it is, everyone's struggling around to make things work, and this life is full of broken dreams. But I still cry to the stars from time to time, simply because I know that the dreams I had to give up meant everything to me at some point in my life. That while I know I can move forward and leave it all behind because that's how life works, I also know for sure that my heart will always remember. 
          
          I cry to the stars so they know how hard I tried, and then I keep it to myself, silently hoping that someday, when I'm a lot wiser and more capable than I am today, I'd stumble upon an old dream left behind and find that I can finally afford to try harder.
          
          And try I will.
          

❤️

You are not the heaviness
          sitting inside of you.
          You are not the battlefield
          where the bodies fall,
          and you are not the sound of cannons
          breaking the sky open.
          You are what happens after the war.
          
          The surviving.
          The healing.
          The rebuilding.
          
          -For the bad nights

You're a data scientist? That's so cool! ❤

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"My oldest brother cannot seem to find someone to love him. I've placed a mirror in every room in the house, hoping he settles for the person he sees the most." 
          

I think I’m always so much more happy with books and movies and stuff. I think I get more excited about well-done representations of life than life itself.