s-stan_lii
guys like being fr rn
am i a bitch for getting into a lot and i mean A LOT of relationships just a day after breaking up w an ex?
i js started doing it to have someone but then my patience wears thin rlly quick and i js move to the next person and repeat. idk i js feel guilty about it because i dont want it to seem as if i was desperate to get out of the relationship i js needed someone to be there and a way to cope and i just ugh..one relationship was like a taste of heaven and it was amazing while it lasted but they meant a lot to me and i feel like it's just REALLY going down the drain now that i'm texting a new girl every day. i told my irl friends abt this habit of mine and they called me a c--t for being a player and breaking hearts like that when i just wanted SOMEONE to love. i didn't like the feeling of being lonely because i was most vulnerable at that time before THEY came along and i earned some self respect for the first time in years and then when it was all over i just needed someone to protect me because that was one of the main reasons why they broke up with me in the first place. they couldn't protect me physically and now i date ppl who actually live near and i can hug and hold and do everything that i wished i could do with /them/ but i feel gross now. more lovers have i had in two weeks than years i've been alive and scars on my body and i just feel like a wh0r3..
Queenshantavia
@s-stan_lii stop saying those things about yourself. You just need guidance you're self aware and everything will be okay
s-stan_lii
@Queenshantavia it's just hard to br by myself. i know that my friends are fake and are just making things worse but this has been a thing since 6 months ago and i know that taking time for myself will do me good but it's just been so long since i've been by myself now. i'll try to take some time for myself but i'm a bitch i have that stupid habit of relying on someone and depending on another person entirely. i'm a bad person because i date such amazing people but i don't deserve them i just hurt them. i'm going to stop getting into relationships so often as much as i can. i'll try to look for other resources to turn to that aren't as deteriorating.
Queenshantavia
Learning to be by yourself is important not because maybe The relationship won't last but more so You need to break the cycle of feeling the urge to get in a relationship because you're scared to be alone. You need to be there for yourself first before anyone can do that for you
