scarletraven23

Thile hits kept coming. Losing my mom was... unexplainable but then my FIL passed 5/3. I not only hady own grief but the grief of losing him and helping my husband and my children through theirs. It's been difficult , for lack of a better word. I appreciate you're prayers and thoughts. 

FrancesAdams2

@scarletraven23 prayers continue for y'all.  I'm so sorry for another loss. You're such a young person to be going through that.
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dame316

@scarletraven23 sending my prayers and love to your family 
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NathanHambridge

Can someone tell me why "the protector" was taken down. I just finished "the guardian" and I wanna read the next book... 

NathanHambridge

@NathanHambridge Thank you. I appreciate it 
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scarletraven23

@NathanHambridge Working on it. Have had a lot going on and I have a job that takes a bunch of my time. Sorry 
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Doolz4

I selected your message board in an attempt to reach out and see if you have given any thought of a book or extended epilogue about Sage from your Rejection book. That's when I saw the messages and notes for all you have gone through with your family and the grief you have experienced. I wish you the best and hope for continued strength and comfort. I often read and/or write to combat anxiety and for times when grief sneaks up on me. It has been years since my father passed. He was the one to encourage me to read. I still feel him close when I read something he would have liked or would have commented on. I hope you allow yourself similar peace and positive memories. Best wishes.

scarletraven23

@Doolz4 I am sorry to hear about your dad.
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scarletraven23

@Doolz4 I do plan for a story for Sage. And my mom was the one who encouraged me to read and she enjoyed my writing. Perhaps, in time, I'll get back to it but for now everytime I try I go blank.
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scarletraven23

Thile hits kept coming. Losing my mom was... unexplainable but then my FIL passed 5/3. I not only hady own grief but the grief of losing him and helping my husband and my children through theirs. It's been difficult , for lack of a better word. I appreciate you're prayers and thoughts. 

FrancesAdams2

@scarletraven23 prayers continue for y'all.  I'm so sorry for another loss. You're such a young person to be going through that.
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dame316

@scarletraven23 sending my prayers and love to your family 
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carrt84

It is never easy to lose someone you love, believe me I know more the most the pain of loss.
          You see the picture of the little girl on my site, I lost her 37 years ago.
          You never forget but you learn to go on. Friends help by listening, family helps by reminiscing. 
          Never forget, but one day you will remember the good memories and continue going forward.
          Your readers will be here waiting for the day you sit and start writing again, even if it is a year from now.
          Take care of yourself and your baby sister.
          Prayers for all of your family.

scarletraven23

You know... When my oldest sister has her heart attack and had open heart surgery... I wrote a short story for her.. "Teaghan". It helped distract me from the guilt of not being able to go see her and from any bad news that I may get. 
          
          My mom is- was very supportive of my writing. Since I got the news, I can't explain how I feel. As cliche as it may sound, I'm numb. I have so many other responsibilities; my kids, taking over the care of my sixteen year old sister, adulting life with bills and funeral stuff to take care of. I was also the one who had to call or contact my family. I had to tell my older sister and my younger sister. I had to tell my mom's dad that his second child was gone. It was a lot.. Even though my entire world shifted the rest of the world goes on and a selfish unrealistic part of me finds that so unfair. 
          
          I haven't had a moment to take in my feelings. Perhaps, when the funeral is done? Maybe next month when Mother's Day comes? I just don't know how to process a life without her in it. And while I appreciate the sentiment behind it, my new biggest issues is people asking, "how are you?" Because again, I don't know. I obviously am hurting. But it still doesn't even feel real. A messed up part of my brain is still operating on her being in the hospital, alive and getting better...
          
          So, I'm going to keep going until I can't. While doing all this thinking, just as with my sister, I've been working on a short story. I know, I know. I have SO SO many other stories to finish and update but my mind just can't reverse itself. 
          
          
          I am sorry for the vent...
          
          For now any and all stories are on hold until further notice. I can't say with 100% certainty that I'll be able to complete them or WHEN I might. I do appreciate your patience, understanding, and support. I honestly can't say how much it means to me because there are no words. 
          
          Just thank you. 

FrancesAdams2

@scarletraven23  I know you're an adult, but now you've been forced to be the ADULT. That's a big step, especially when you aren't expecting it. I'm almost 60, and my husband and I had a similar situation when his mom passed away, she was the last older adult in the family. It's hard indeed. You and your sister are going to feel lost for a while.  Just try every day to find 1 thing to smile about.  A memory, a picture, a book, a movie,  a pet, anything at all. Healing happens differently for all, but I pray yours is as fast and as thorough as possible. 
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wesamkamal2

@scarletraven23 
            I understand every feeling you wrote 
            just write everything inside your head and everything you feel  you will be better(words on paper get  out of your soul )
            I wish you to be well soon 
            To be stronger to be able to keep going  
            Sorry for your lose ...
            (Sorry for my English,not my first language.hope u understand my meaning)
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IHateNoses

@scarletraven23 People cope in so many different ways. Some people bottle it in, some people express all of their emotions, and some people like to reminensce in what once was. There is no right way of doing it. 
            
            Like in the last song of Hamilton's Musical, we don't get to choose who tells our story. 
            
            We won't be mad. Take as long as you need to write your mother's story. As always, we'll be here :) 
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jENNIE68

Hi Sweetie.  I'm not going to ask how you're doing,  because I have been in your shoes,  and I know.  How are you functioning? Here if you need me. Facebook,  Twitter,  Instagram, or messenger.  Even if you just need some to sit and listen.